Panasssssssssssssss

but tomolo will be lebih panas 42 degreee gileee deh dah kaya di padang pasirrrr

stresssss, ga abis2nya
sebel jg
bt
not fair
but lucky
sial, tinggal 1 point doang

Regrets

sebelllll
kesellllll
reseeeeeee
regretttttssss
thx God for the supplement...
kejammm
wu liao
sad
happy
worried
no way out
jealous
dont know what to do
deadlock
better future??? i doubt it
iss? sebel jg, ga dapet
or kudu bersukur?

move the anger and stress to iss? it is not fair!!!
who to blame?
myself? irvie said, i dont fully understand the concepts, i think that was right but who can help me? i cant find the helper, not even jo and julie.
jo is missing, cant find her through email, need to see her on Monday, asking help again????

oh no, is this the right way to do? Lord, i said u did not fair to me but then it was only a blaming from my failure, i have nobody to blame except that i only can blame You. i know this is not right, but who can i blame? myself? i hate my self as Vanness sang in his song, wo tau yen wo ce ci. i need someone to help me, some one who can direct me, someone who i can share my problems and my happiness, when i can have one?
I am not the one who can believe people easily now because of the past event eg coolvrb. hard to believe and hard to get know other new people. hate to basa basi to start the conversation.

last night went to dinner with new friends, they looked happy and i seem happy too but they didnt know what was in my mind at that time. i can cover it in front of people and people cant know what i felt. or am i too 'angkuh' to share with other people?

i am too stress to think now, dont know what to do. somebody please help meeee

Free train day!

Yesterday was a free day train in Sydney. I took the chance to Chatswood and Bondi. Free of charges except the bus fares. First time, alone, went to Chatswood with no any purpose, well the purpose was to enjoy the free train, I think this kind of thing never happened in Indo :P

Ready at about 11am, jump to the bus and went to Central at 11.30am and arrived at Chatswood at 12.30. first stop to the Ren Tea house, to get some green tea candy then walk to the mall and walking around, visited the place I wanted to -it was in my list-
I spend almost an hour and half there and then went back to Central to continue my journey (ce ilah!!) to Bondi Junction. Well, it was pretty easy and ‘Someone’ made it easy for me by not waiting too long to get to the train. I bought some veggies there and then went home by 400. And know what, I did not have to wait for 400, it came straight away I got out the mall. Huh, sometimes 400 make people angry because of the long period of waiting time. Well that was simple story bout yesterday.

Mars, 戰 神, with大S 和 仔仔 in it, was quite ‘pretty dull’ story for me. Don’t know why people kept saying the drama was good??? Or I did not concentrate while watching it? Or read to much spoilers in forums?? The good thing in this drama is仔仔, he improve a lot in acting. Really good in 陳 靈’s character, although sometimes I saw a bit in consistent in his acting while 大S’ acting seem so boringggggggggg, a type of ‘penurut’ in this drama. 情美 is the one like in this drama, so fierce and alive, gave the ‘spirit’ in this drama.

Now, I am watching Liang Nu lang (duh how to type it in Chinese?) I like Ambrose J cute in that drama hahahahahhahaahha. The story seems ok, but bit boring but flow quickly or because of 1 epi only takes about 40mins? Oh well, let spend the holiday by watching the dramas. Next stop will be the outsider 1 and 2 last epi of love contract and now I am donloding epi 2-4 of magic ring J

很無聊!!!!! Today pretty boring, clean up the kitchen and become kecoa (duh gimana word kecoa in English???) buster

Australian public has chosen Casey Donovan as their idol, leaving Anthony Calea as the second winner. Last Sunday night, the result revealed at a spectacular show in Sydney Opera House. Many of my friends are in Anthony’s side, they voted a lot while me, supporting Casey without any votes hehehehehehe

I am watching Princess Diary 2 now, just cant believe that there was Chinese song in it!! Amaze!!!

Bad mood!

Just called indo, bad bad feeling..... dont know why.
bt, sebellll
alone, ini gara2 baca synopsis MARS, si Chen ling lonely then i just felt that I have the same feeling. norak amat y ah/?? duh tangan kiri kok pegel ya? havent done anything yet but soar gituuuuu

Mango Strawberry

Hmmm, sounds weird huh? I just came back from mall and bought mango strawberry. The fruit is really mango but the skin’s color is red and orange. Strange combination but it taste good, sweet and a bit ‘asem’

Yesterday I finished may exams and finally will be free for the next three and half months. If I take the summer session, I will be free for 1.5 months only.
About the exams, started on last Friday afternoon, the questions are actually not really difficult to attempt but, dasar ga belajar dr pengalaman mid session, took time to do it. Although I did finished the foreign currency’s part but I not so sure that will be exactly correct.

Monday’s exam was hell. I totally screw it up, I did miss one question, I did the question on the question paper and did not transfer to the answer sheet, it totally S***!!!! Make me think of this for hours before I can study for the last exam.

Yesterday’s exam was, actually, in moderate level. I think I did quite ok about this but don’t really know what will happen then but at least I finished the exams.

Today, have no plan at all and then atien called, asked me to mall :). Quite strange since she hasn’t finished her exams yet

Just now, awen just said, need to clean up the bathroom?? What is this? Blaming me? Cant not lah, dah kebal. Who she want to ‘singgung”. Don’t work at me anymore lah. *ups msia’s style.

Back to today’s agenda. Did some shopping di mana $$ mengalir tanpa keliatan, cos I was using my card.huhuhhuhu sedih bener deh rasanya, flow away without I can see it clearly. At least, I got present for my mum, but failed to buy present for my fav niece. Have to look and search at another place some day.

Just chat with lidia and she got the job at coles, duh sebel dehhh, kenapa gue ga dapet? And why they asked me to resit the test without any intention to hire me? Not worthed to do that. Sebel sebel sebel but windy didn’t get the job too, according to her. Ok lah, at least I have friend. Jahat banget sih cari temen sependeritaan.

Next part is another story, remember ‘crazyunswboy’? the one that come to my blog? In week 14 ( i think week 14) when I read blitz, unintended, I read the adv there and found out that he is a 27 yo asian boy desperately looking for a girl to marry. Desperate banget sih? Mau pake acara kawin kilat and looking for a girl with some consideration such as kudu lahir di tahun berapa gitu. Wow in this modern world, still have “young people” if that age still consider at young not mature age. Weird world to my mind.

Hmm wat else? Cant think of any, eitss, just remember, donloded the moonchild, but don’t hv English subtitle, only got mandarin sub, khe lian banget sih? Walah walah walahhhhhh, sebellllllllllllllllllll, ntn jadi ga ngerti dehhh

Ok for now, cos it really hot today and still how till now. Summer is coming and I think I cant handle it really well. Skrg aja even belum summer dah kepanasan

last blog before exams

exams are coming, not soonn but sooooooooonnnnn. I have mine first on this Friday and finish all of the exams on Wed while my friends will start on this Thurs. Hua hua huauhau hauua, when i can enjoy they will be suffering for a little longer time than me hehehhe

nothing much happened since me 'bertapa' di rumah and catch up alots of things. Awen will be home on Friday.

good new, finished donloding The outsider 20 epis yipeeee, so ada stock for holidays and now, try to get Liang Nu Lang, almost finish too :)

audit assignment is back, get 7/10, not bad considering everyone have the same marks :) nonna try to push the marks up because her class did not vert well haha, including me :( Wish me luck for the monday's exam.

ok for now....

Busy Saturday

Today's agenda was studying for the finals. then ketiduran hehe. and then finished donloded Magic Ring and cant hold the temptation to watch so i watched it and not really felt good aabout that drama although ada YC and ce nya hua ce lei jg. i dont like the main actress, gaya mirip sanchai but ga mirip2 amat

then here come the big worries, a wedding invitation that i have to attend on behalf of my parents. hmm heavy duty to be done and felt dont want to go there with afai n atin. and luckyly near the time to go, abon decided to go and i got a friend then. thx Jesus, you are my savior :) Finally i have a friend in that glorious and joyous party.

met some people that i know when i was a kid but not really know now :)

ok deh, end for now
have to back to read 5996 .....

Exams, work, NZ

exams are in a week's time. so rush, hv to prepare it carefull, oh foreign currency translations, consolidation, come soon and i will let it go in next week's friday afternoonnnnnnn. yeah

just got online assessment (again) from coles. dont know wat they want me to do.

read mails from mailing list, a bit inspired of doing some exercise in unigym :)

NZ? do i need some holiday? --> quick desision. must be decided next monday

watching summer scent now, via streamline indosiar

Melbourne Cup!

Hmmm, what in my mind is maybe the race or any kind of championship held in Melbourne. And… it is a horse race held in melb and everyone here especially the local people very excited about it. There are also hat carnival, if I can say like that, it like fashion show with hat become the main of interest. Actually this event held on Tuesday and people already get excited about it.

Oh yeah, last night I have to change my clock due to day light saving….. hmm hate this situation cos cut 1 hour of my precious time. Now I can understand what harle felt at time when she told me, her sleep time was cut. Same here too. Because of this, this morning, I woke up a bit late,well, I have my alarm rung me up already but I keep extend 15 minutes and 15 minutes. *still don’t want to blame my self* take quick shower and run to bus stop, and still late to church cos 400 always come late when we really need.

Choir, have temptation to join but I don’t like the system of how they are practicing. Cos don’t really get into me. This morning I saw vrb and atien join the choir. They performance is quite good, but still I can see, not much practice and not harmonize really well, but overall ok lah

KAmis lagi....

Thursday again, it is end of week 13. one more week to go before the finals. And then here come the finals, thx God I will finish it in mid of week 16 and then freee for about three months?? Wat should i do then? Going home? Really want to but mei you chien le. Ce me pan?

This week ol a lot and even chats a lot, gawat neh ga bisa control and then what will happen to my pr2 and belajar?
Wat else. Hmm today just hand in the last part of 5908 assignment and I didn’t know what is going on in the class. Really not into the lecture. This is probably because of the ‘hate’ of this subject? Nonna didn’t tell what is she going to talk about in the lecture. Sialllll

My best friend has finished her degree and now looking for job, how nice is that? I wish I already finished the school stuff. Many people will always think that studying is better than working, while me keep thinking that working is better than studying. By working u can get money and face the real life ie. Challenge. In uni, u dnot have any experience and sometimes don’t ‘connect’ with the lecture’s topic because u don’t wont and don’t know much about it.

Ook I don’t know wat to type anymore and I still have about 30mins before the class. Wat should I do then? Play games? Hmm rada tengsin jg neh kl maen game soalnya kiri kanan pada sibuk assignment masa g maen games sih?

Boring

Been a long time, not blogging.
This weekend rush with the 10 mark stupid assignment and got bit conflict in the content with the other group. Don’t know I was wrong or them but I really don’t hv confidence in this so probably they were right. Have to online in msn to discuss the assignment. Some people say cool about this but I don’t think so cos I don’t know how to handle the problem and not really get it.
Online twice already and only help a bit of the assignment. Oh in few days I will leave this assignment and don’t want to really care about it anymore.

Awen went home so just me alone with abon now, more convenience now :P no one to control, it just like there was no landlord in you J Freedom!!!

Nothing much I can share here cos nothing special I can tell here. What I need is maybe new dress for the my friend’s wedding in nov, I will go there with afai n atin and leave abon at home hehehehheheheh *:P* there will be much money flow out from my pocket.

Hm talking bout money, just remember, I did spent $120 for my new glass. Gila deh mahal banget, kl di mangga 2 mungkin Cuma 100rb maksimal. Bener2 deh dibangkrutrin ama tokok kacamata di sini. Then one of my teeth broke,again, and cost me $150. lah gimana ga bangkrup, gara2 eat subway for my dinner, I broke that tooth. Huahuhauhauahuhuahuahauhahuuhahuauahauuahuahua. I should can save about 300$ for this month and earn some more but bankrupt because of this. Sial dehhh

Dee has come back to Jakarta from France and looking for job now. She has new degree now and can speak French, too. I try to learn chinese (kok ga nyambung ya ama French??) David thought that I cant read and speak chinese. Huh bener2 pelecehan, he just think I am Indo and then cant speak chinese? Hold on!!!! My grandpa was from China so mau ga mau gue kudu bisa speak chinese a bit dong.
Oh, just remember y mum keep asking her children to learn chinese, now I a bit regreted. Wrong decision is taken at that time. Sebel I wish I can go back to that time again, only the part when my mum asking me to take chinese course.

This days, the day went so fast and I have nothing special to do except work and study for the coming final exams. I want to come home but mum say, just safe the money and stay here, if stay here what should I do during the holiday? Boring man!! Mending ke jkt, ketemu temen2 then masih bisa ntn and jalan2. gimana ya? I really want to come home!!
Help!! Wish me luck in the exams

PS: each sentence I typed, is not connected each other?? Parah neh

20 October 2004, subuh2 :)

Just finished the group meeting on msn an hour ago. It should be discussing the assignment but at the end, it turned out, the boys, discussing the gundam and games which I don’t really understand, but at least in 2 hours we come to decide 2 kind of business risks to put in the assignment.

Felt pretty bad in the beginning of the of the conversation cos they seem pretty know what they are going to talk about, the risks, assertions, ST, AP and so on, but when David away for a while then I felt I can join the conversation. I am a bit afraid of David, he seems arrogant and doesn’t want to be beat by anyone or this is just wat I felt? Don’t think so cos I felt offended by his actions. The discussion ended up with decision, I hv to meet Amanda tomolo and then discuss it again on thurs after the class.

I think this is the time for me to join any social activities in uni by starting to apply to any kind of organization that I interested in. starting by joining the workshop “ how to apply job internationally” and following day with topic ‘ prepare Australian workplace” then I have another information session for international student on the same day. Luckily, every events have different schedules, if not, I don’t know which one to sacrifice.

Have another religious club event for tomolo, asking to join the AGM, and asked me to join the board member. I want to join but … the problem is there are so many undergrads there and not so many postgrads student there so… don’t know I will come or not, depends on tomolo conditions.

Have spirit to read the textbook but then suddenly the spirit gone away…..
Have no jia you le to read the text book better play spider solitaire then read the text book but if I don’t read I don’t understand and cant finish that silly and stupid useless assignment that due in week 13. how can I survive in this subject? Don’t know cos I nees some miracle, jadi inget chi ji (how to write it in Chinese, past memory in Lavender come across my mine, the part where Leo and Xun expected third miracle, almost end of the story)

Almost 2 am now, struggling for awake but I am not doing the reading but blogging. I need something new, new environment, new friends, new social activities. And I really gratefull not join the 40 days purpose of ur life cos u got the book free but u have to spend some money for dinner in ur groups every week and I don’t hv to meet ‘cool’, yeahhhhh. No feeling at all now and don’t care what is she going to do, but a bit sad that she wont be my ‘real’ best friend anymore. I started to realize that the best friend u can get is the friend u grow up together since elementary school, but u still can also hv best friends when u are in uni or work place but (lots of but…) many considerations.

Duh ngantuk deh, malas ngetik then
See ya

Rainy days

This week will be the rainy week cos rain till Thursday.
Today reaalllllyyyyyy bangkrut dah, ke optomestrist, ke dr gigi, duh semua duit larinya ke tempat yg ga semestinya neh. sebel dehhhh

donlod Mars, mentok di epi 6 n 5, padahal tinggal .1% lagi selesai eh ga jalan2 donlodnya sebel ih.
i will try again later hehehehhe, tinggal epi 13 yg belum ada didaftar so next week i will be able to see the whole episodes of MArs :) what a nice life :). refreshing sebelum ujian

wish me luck

Good Day

Yesteday went to class whole day meskipun sorenya pulang dulu. these 2 days Sydney become hotter and hotter, untungnya kemaren sore after i decided to go home, the weather become so windy and cold. Again.. wrong decision yesterday. back to uni at 5.30pm, the weather become so cold which is good but in the class was still hot cos no windows were opened due to lightening and small rain.

Got cancelled the job for today which is good so i can sleep more and do the other stuffs.
Last night just found out that Hotmail capacity become bigger and bigger, 250MB. it much much bigger that yahoo now but only 25% from gmail. this is good because * y i keep using the word good? because today is friday?*

pusing liao... ok for now

Got job
Pusing of assignments
Lots of time terbuang sia2,pusing banget sih
Don’t know what to read and type.

I have watched MARS for the ¾ part of epi 1 and finished epi 2, finished downloading epi 3 last night. Still have no time to watch. I need to catch up with consolidation, mgt accounting and that disaster subject. No work for next week till Friday. Yeah!!! But it is also mean no money keep going into my pocket. Gimana bisa dapet ipod, kl begitu terus ?

Last week got a whole series of Go on the stage. Watched the first episode (again) yesterday but didn’t finished it. This time I watched it with proper subtitle. Seen Li Xiang again. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu hou suai!!!

Now end up in lab doing nothing except bengong. Today’s weather is quite hot but much better compared to yesterday. It was 38 degree yesterday. Should I go home not and then take a bath before the class? It is really really hot now.

Ok decided, need to go home!!!

Monday again!!

TOday a bit males cos not enough of sleep but have to wake up because I have to go to this early lecture. Important :)
Now end up in lab n confuse of what to do. Cant hear hitfm =pukul fm ala rahmat :))
Want to sleep but how? Want to blog but need time to think what to write

Reunion

Just back from StarCity :devil: malam2 ke casino, ngapain ya?
Yesterday was a long day and yesterdaynya lagi jg long day.
Saturday prepared dinner for bday girl, kept her till 12am. then sunday morning, make another surprise with other group.

The most fun was meeting my junior high school friends. Few of them, I havent met since we were graduated from Junior High, 10 years ago. Met the same person with different attitudes. every one has changed. Met susan, she got married last year and celebrated in home town las may. she changed alot and was nice to meet her again. Guess what!! she works at uni, near jo's office. i almost revealed my secret to them when i said i cant aplly for pr. who dont want pr? me WANT it badly but mei pan fa, cant apply unless i pay all of them back to Jo :(:(
Met luna, too but didnt talk to much with her. she is getting merried next year. hmm everyone is getting married, how about me??? stuck with assignment for the next few months. HEn khe lian:(:(

I want to sleep now :)
have a class in 8hours's time

ev

SEbel!!

baru aja terima berita baru, tuh orng kok rese amat seh? udah dibaekin malah ga tau diuntung?
I try to be kind but dissapointed jg neh because of this small silly "sensitivity"

Ok, right now, I dont want to know more about orng itu anymore. please dont blame me for that reason.

kesel aja rasanyaaaa, kl ini vie yg jadi sasaran kekesalan gue and ternyata dia jg kesal sih soal ini but ga tau aja gimana keluarin. From now on, i will only concentrate to my study, no more info bout this people, try to reduce the info and stuff.

Hate Thursday!!

Since I have choosen the wrong subject, I felt really bad when I entered the class. Asking for a tutor, seems no one available for that position.

Seeking help from lecturer, especially she, doesn’t help at all. I don’t understand what is she saying and she didn’t help at all to solve the problem I have.

Don’t know what to do.

Another thing to tell, few days ago, I have a chat with a friend of mine, he is in spore, since he doesn’t hv gf yet, he decided to take a latin dance class to widen his social life. Funny hah? I know what type of person he is, how come he dance? LOL cant believe it.

Remember, David, Shang Hai ren?? I just find out that he is a K-drama addict. Strange since guy like drama? He did donloded from the web and he likes Stairway to heaven. He told me that the drama is really good. While Amanda don’t like Dolphin bay, she just don’t like those kinds of drama. Well, I have met different people with different kind/taste of drama. Haven’t find the one that have the same taste of drama. Hen nan cau tao!!

Stress, assignment, happiness, sadness, jia you!!

Yesterday, I went boating with my housemates and their friends. I really enjoyed it but then when back home, felt really really tired and always thinking of assignments that haven’t finished yet. I think I will freak out because of this.

I went to Cronulla …, don’t remember the name of the boat, it just a pontoon boat and it is really better than what I used to see in Ponti :). The water of the sea is also better, green and blue, not brown, like I used to see in Kapuas River. Some of the guys were doing their fishing yesterday but only 1 guy got fishes. I think he got 2 fishes then we grilled 1 fish and leave the other fish back to the sea. Yesterday’s weather was really good for sailing and fishing, sunny all the day but the wind is sooooooo cold, this is probably the spring weather. I have fun yesterday. Sailing and boating in another country (duh noraknya keluar dahhh, ga tahannnnn!!)

Today, I have a group meeting again, hopefully this is the last meeting cos I didn’t see what is useful with this meeting, well actually we can meet via email. And this is enough, just use the facility provided, use the unimail account to send email and add comment or addition to the assignment. Pretty boring and don’t have much progress though.

Next stop, I think I probably will meet Jo, hand in the survey for this semester and then meet Yew Kong for the visa reference for my family. I have to go to optometrist too, to check my eyes, duh laper neh, pengen makan. Internet di rumah lagi ga jalan so what is the point that I going home? No net means no donlod :(