Another year has passed.

There are so many things to think about. Reflection of life, relationship with God and with society. Progress of studying, join the uni’s activities and many other stuffs.
The most important thing is relationship with God (obvious!!), then relationship with people around you. The less you communicate with them, the less close will be. This is true. I felt it that way, so how can I improve that? I was too ‘cuek’ person so I don’t care too much with other people’s problem because I think it was not in my scope to know.

Dah ah, dah jam 2 ngelantur kemana2, mending baca ttg advantages and disadvantages about CoCoA buat bahan exam hihi

Jia You!!

I did it finally…

Just now, come back from City. I did something that I wanted to do since a long long time and now I felt glad that I have done it, although the thing I did doesn’t represent anything at all to other people but for me, I need a big support to do it. Tapi sebel,barangnya kok dah ga bagus sih? But next time, I promise, I will bring a good one. Untungnya lagi, ini di Sydney so people don’t care what you do.

Then just now, I lie again, but it is for my own sake, I think. I have to start making a distance, if not, I can make a mistake then in the future. I already said before so listen to my heart. Lord, guide me!!

No way out for the moment...

I have been thinking a lot lately, about life, friendship, relationship, study, uni life and everything that comes into my mind. Truely, at the moment, i dont know wat should i do.
Tomorrow, i have a plan that i wish to do since long long time ago. hopefully I can do it.

and just now, few hours ago, i did stupid mistake by online and then it really disturb my concentration. cen de pen tan!! Stupid stupid stupid!!! I kept saying to myself, dont online, dont online, but i still online and now, you see, i got the bad side effect of this stupid decision.

oh, how come you dont hear what ur heart say? too naughty to obey wat ur heart say.

the other problem that still in my thinking is that wat happen if you were born with many mixed blood? I mean ur blood consist of many nationalities? should you be gratefull or regret it? i think it depends on wat nationalities you have. If you have much of huan kia's blood, then thai ke si lah. I wont like it and will make a certain distance to that limit. on the other hand(duh kaya essay aja), if you can survive because of this strange mixed blood that make you 'dikucilkan' from the majority, you are brave but again, i will keep distance because there are so many not blessed things happen because of this problem. Hey, wat am i talking about? subuh2 ngetiknya seh cepat but meramput apa neh? duhhhhh
at least i shout out wat i think at the moment because i cant share it with other people around me at this time, this is not the time yet.

tomorrow, what is going to happen? Let it be!! but please dont make me felt 'malu banget', k
oh God, please help me make up a reason for tomorrow!! i want to avoid bad thing to happen. I believe You will help me!! amin.

loh kok malah jadi doa seh. duh tulalit mode is on now.

i wish i can meet you guys, ruth, hanny, i really miss you, friends, cant wait to see you again. i want to escape for the moment, too many pressure on me right now...................

From now on, listen to wat ur heart say, jangan nakallllllllllllllllllllll
done for now. still not lega but at least i shouted out already.

Critiques

How come it so difficult to accept critiques? Even though the critiques are wise enough for you to apply?

and how so lucky that the critiques that I accepted, not directly given to me, exactly in my face, but through chatting?

"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach him to use the Net and he won't bother you for weeks".

kok jadi mirip blog g di prenster yah? kacau dah hahahahahhahha

what is going on with me? suddenly i felt really lonely.
dau ti you se me se?

kue ultah, read the candles carefully :)
isenkk's property

Rearrange my life…

Today is public holiday here. Oz people are celebrating the Anzac Day, it is just like Hari Pahlawan in Indonesia. Nothing I can do on this day because everyone was busy with their own stuffs. I was doing/finishing my assignment, which I don’t really sure that is a good report, but at least I try to do it and then I will cut it to reach its word limit.

Today, I got my laptop fixed and installed with new softwares, installed new anti virus that I don’t have before. Gelo yah g, ga ada anti virus but donlod2 lagu, emang dodol dah, dah gitu lumyan gaptek lagi, thx God, I have friends that can help me with this problems.

Today, I did nothing at all. Just try to finish my assignment and try to study. I didn’t expect that fixing my computer will take a long long time, almost half day, and I was a bit curious what he is going to do by fixing my laptop. Is he and friends planning for something next week? Or I just curious too much? Ah don’t care anyway but still curious, want to know :(

I have to start to study now, no other choice, on Thursday, I have to finish editing my assignment so on Friday I can summit my assignment on time.

Well, yesterday was nana’s bday. As usual, few of us were planning the surprise party for her. I think we did it pretty well but when we finished the party, she started to cry because of that bloody melb. guy. He didn’t call her, which is good but she ended up with crying and made a friend of mine panic. Well, I used to that situation before so santai aja. At first, I also got panic but then I realize she is just sentimental. I am sure she is ok now. Hopefully she is getting over it soon.

Well, this is the end of these few days journey.

Long journey will be continued….

Be tough!!

Happy Bday, mate
How everything is ok and u soon forget that bloody stupid guy in melb that heard you a lot. Cheer up, girl!! We care about u, so let go your self from this knot, k?

Been busy for the whole week, have sat in front of computer for days, make my eyes suffered.
The next coming week will be busy as well :(

Kingdom of Heaven - orlando bloom?
any1 interested?

Confuse

Everyone has their own problems. But this time, I found Desy crying in her praying, I don’t know what to do, help her? But she seem don’t want my help. I am not her any one, she just my new housemate. Ce me pan?

Preparing nana’s bday present took a lot of time, every one is busy with their own things, assignments, exams and other personal stuffs. And then me again have to arrange it and prepare it, luckily some friends are willing to help, so we discussed it through messenger but I still the ‘main’ responsible.

Just now, she came in to my room and asking me, wat I am doing now, I said, doing my assignment, she didn’t know what I typed just now :P hai yah so aneh that people.

My feeling just ok now but tooooo lazy to start the assignments. I have the ideas in my mind but cant put it in writing. I know what the assignment asking for but the main problem is LAZY ………

My relationship with other friends seem look better and better but not with Hailsetan itu. Don’t know why I try to avoid to make important conversation with her. Just talk the ‘basa basi’ stuffs. And back to Nana’s bday present, she also wanted to give her idea but don’t want to help. Hmmm, rese aja gitu loh, hanya pengen memuaskan kemauannya dia doang tanpa berpikir org laen yg lagi kerjain hal tersebut. She can use her exams as reason but other friends jg ada exams kan? Not only her, have exams in front. Ok enough bout her.

Oren, one of my online friend is missing, cant contact her, cant message her, cant email her. Where is she? Oren, if u read my blog, please contact me, k?

\back to study againnnnnnn, hopefully hihi

New Pope has been elected

welcome Pope Benedict XVI, weird name, although good meaning
tired
chat alot
cope with uni quite well
nana's bday is coming, mine as well
rahmat gelo, kl chatting ga ada yg bener

ok deh
blogging again next time
now: not in the mood

lost and found again..

just watched desperate housewives, everyweek i got a good quote from the series.
tonite quote is we dont know who we can trust.

felt miserable, i did a little lie today but wu suo wei lah, i met amanda and she told me about her telemarketing jobs, funny :)

felt not ok now, cos lots of things need to be done in the same time and i also need to work for my holiday budget. wuahhhh pusing

a bit done

i have done my reading, hope can help for monday's lecture
have to print lecture notes on Monday and print the assignment, havent fixed that yet

trus tadi sore mau ke gereja eh ketiduran, bangun2 pas jam misa mulai, sebel deh
so have to go tomolo lah :)

stucked at Positive Accounting Theory and now i am moving on CoCoA (Continous ly Contemporary Accounting).
duh apaan seh itu?

this afternoon. I only spend less than 1 hour in the libr and then went home sleep. Now lagi mentok baca accounting theory yg emang amit2 byk banget itu

helppp helpppp... kelelep neh g hehhehehe

Done..


I just finished the online assessment.
now want to take a shower and have my early lunch and then go to church and uni
let see, i can stay there for how long hehehe
cos today is cloudy day...

reminds me of checking the weather :)

outnow . lost

wish me luck ...
i'll do the online assessment tomorrow morning before going to uni and church :)

isenkk jia you!!

Sulit...


How come giving advise to other people is easy? and when u know wat u have to do is difficult to implement?

kasih nasehat seh gampang ke org and orang yg dapet nasehat itu jg grateful gitu, but kok g ga bisa yah laksanakan nasehat tersebut sendiri?

anyway, 3 more months i will be at home :)

and another problems will come out by that time :(
jobless, job seekers ...

Trying to back on track...

Today, such a long long day.
try to finish my assignment, read 5943, go to libr, class and then got news that the mid exam is postponed to week 9 which is 3 weeks from now. I dont know what should I do, be happy or sad. On one side, i have extra time for studying but at the other side, since the exam is on the beginning of the month, probably at that time I will be working. gimana dong, mau kena mundur jg kena. Pengen ujian beres and sukses, pengen jg kerja dapet duit, duhhhhhh
Helpppp...

Lost again…..

I have thinking and thinking and thinking, what is going on with me this lately. Work like maniac, saving money like I never do, chatting a lot with one particular person (this has to be stopped, virus, but can I do that? Sometimes helping a friend is a great satisfaction but too much help also can harm me), don’t care with my assignments and study, don’t obey my praying time. Don’t know what is happening to me, I have tried to fix it but still cant.

I need to talk to somebody that really understand me, understand what I want now, understand how I feel now, understand what I want to achieve now and the point is understand me truly. As In desperate housewives: Human are complicated creatures. And now I felt that I am really complicated, there are so many things I have to do and I haven’t even finished them all perfectly.

Let start with the ticketing, Jo has sent the going home letter to me and I supposed to book the ticket right away but till now, I haven’t done anything with it. Still can decide when I want to go home. Truly I don’t want to go home, I love Sydney despite the city is not like the ‘bule’ city I expected, but I love Sydney, I am gonna miss Sydney.

Next thing, I have planned in my mind that I have to finish searching the companies vacancies in april but I havent done anything yet. Haven’t fixed my resume yet. Well, by the end of this month I should have, at least, planned what I have to do, but I failed to do that. Sigh!!,

Coming up next, mid exam of ACCT 5943, it is like hell, the materials are too theoretical, how I supposed to memorize it and it will come out in multiple choice questions? The other subject has assignment due at the end of this months, I just started to read the questions and it seem almost the same as ACCT 5931, about 5 forces of Porters.

Next, Nana’s bday, don’t have any plan. I don’t know what to do for her bday, cos at that time everyone is busy with their own exams and assignment. The week after will be my bday. A bit scare to celebrate my bday, u know what, I am getting older, sigh!, I wish I can discount my age. I don’t know what my friends are going to prepare. -deleted-
Next, I just realize that I lost or forget where I put my prayer book. I cant find it. Gawat, kudu cari neh besok pagi.

Medicine of my stress is crying but this lately I hardly even can cried, my mind want to cried but my eyes didn’t compromise. Last Sunday, I found out that I lost my niece and I didn’t feel sad at all. How cruel I was? She was just 1 day old; I even have no chance to see her for the first time and she just gone….

I want to cry, to shout out loud….,pray to the Lord, asking for guidance cos I am really really lost now.

can I turn off my messenger everytime I log in to the internet? Can I do that? I will try my best, just pretend my messenger is broken? Can i? I doubt myself . ce me pan?? Wo hen pusinggggg

Still Lost

got friendster msg from Tino : every thing just fine and just trying to keep my world turning arround.so far... so tired... THEN yup... my num still the same... happy easter 2and looking forward to meet u

everyone seems so busy and tired, and me toooooooo
too many things to do, just finished my application letter and send it already

but my feeling still lost and still cant find the way out, ce me pan? efeknya skrg lage ntn Mr. Figthing 13, close to the end ...