tonite

remind me to tall about:
-Stairway to heaven
-Adrian and his sister who really care for me :D ...... ada lanjutannya yg norak hihihihihihihi
-supplementary exam this afternoon, dont know will be good or bad
-plan to order IPod $499 ---> matilahhh kl ketauan bonyok, eh gpp ding, duit AusAid ini hehehhe amd duit kerja gue yg belum cukup
-meet hery, he is coming this morning fr Melb
-coolvrb's xmas party ---> too early to celebrate
--magic ring
-love story in harvard

* duh ketik di kompinya awen susah bener sih? macet2 keyboardnya

what else?
gosipin harle hihihihihihihi
really glad for her!! Go sister!!

December 5, 2004 : 9.15pm

I was phoned by Iffy at around 9pm and then awen said, ‘berisik’!!! pengen marah aja neh gue. Abisnya biasanya dia telp jg begitu ga inget2 orang lagi belajar or lagi konsen to read, and dgn tidak ada salahnya bilang, g telp nyokap ah!!!. Kl mau telp kan bisa di luar. Seenak perutnya aja. I think baru kali ini aja tuh gue telp and dia tidur. Trus langsung komplen. Bikin emosi aja deh

Udah coolvrb bikin orang emosi, eh dia lagi yg bikin emosi, gimana caranya gue bisa ciptain damai di hati and damai di rumah?
Menghindari coolvrb? Hmmm I find the good way, going to Newcastle so I don’t hv to prepare food and tuker kado, hemat duit makan buat jalan2, ga ada salahnya.
Anyway, I didn’t make any RSVP as the invitation said so don’t consider that I am going. Most of my friends are not going so why should i? walah negative thinking neh. Wu suo wei lah.

Ming thian harus buat contekan ujian her open book and have to read the course outline and study case again with care and consentration. Wish me luck!!
Have to transfer rent money to her account, duh merepotkan gue aja neh.
Soal kulkas yudha gimana ya besok? Irvie belum pulang kerja. Gimana dong? Or she will call me tomolo?

I didn’t go anywhere today cos I fulfill my duties yesterday and today I didn’t spend money which is good!!!

*lagi emosian nehhhh!!

blogging again

Sun rise at 5.30 am and set at 8pm? What a long day. This is happening now in Sydney. This is what I fell for this summer, long long day and fell confortable when going home at 7or 8 pm cos the sun just set and fell like 5.30pm.

Working for two days, quite tired although the job was easy and don’t need to use the brain, what I need is just the speed and ‘teliti’ to sort.

Wednesday is coming!! Hope I can pass that day with now ‘halangan’ and pass too

Get a bit angry with someone, invite me to xmas party and then malah asking me to cook rendang. Emang g tukang masak lu? Emang lu ga bisa masak sendiri? Begitu gue tolak eh malah ga sadar, masakin telur puyuh with prawn, seenaknya aja, emang ga mahal tuh bahan2? Gue kan lagi program irit neh cos my parents is coming and I have to save money and spend what I have for them. Sudah layak and sepantasnya kan? Quite bokek jg after spend 40$ for the dvd.

Saturday 4 December 2004
Boring boring day today, have no spirit to study cos it seem unfair for me, while other has already enjoy their holiday and me, have to read the study case? Not fair to say to, thx God I have second chance to fix something wrong but the spirit has not come yet. Ce me pan?

Talk to landlord bout my parents is coming and asking about the rent, from her face, I doubt she will agree although she had no choice to not agree that my parents will stay here :)

Bit upset when chatted with heri, he wasn’t comforting me while I need someone to talk to and relief all my stress. Jadi bt deh bawaannya then he said turn of the msn and study!! Who don’t want to success? Idiot kali yg mau?

Today is Ike’s bday, I forget to send card and merasa males aja send sms, cos mahal? Kok jadi pelit gitu yah? More news bout my friends, Esther is in Bali now, she has new job there. Cant believe that she is there now.

Yesterday, Fachri called me asked about present for p’Zaeni, and he thought that everyone is enjoying holidays by spend the time in the city. I felt abit sebel cos I went to city to ‘find some $$” hihihihi,to support my ipod and digicam fund.

There are many things I want to talk about here but to lazy to type? Ce me pan? And too many thing to think about in my mind now. Want to finish the supplemen right away cos really really annoying right now.

Working with Clarte 2 days ago, make me felt that I am become a bit kiasu person. Duh beginii kan gawat banget, heading my direction to Spore doesn’t make my perspective become kiasu, right ? gara2 info dr nana, said that Clarte is a nice person, eh ternyata emang bener but Cuma dikit doang benernya, he can work comfortable while listening to his ipod and don’t feel that the supervisor was watching at him

Today blog on 1 paragraph about the people I met in the last few days
Oh ya, I met a writer from Canada, she was talking to me when I have my lunch on Wednesday

lah besok malah back to dingin lagi deh suhunya
berkisar 18-25 degree
lahhh
moga2 ga hujan, biar gue bisa ke city cari tambahan $$ :)

jia you!!!

harle sms gue tadi siang, isinya : lagi dengerin lagu ZZ eh salju turun.
duh gue sirik banget, yg ada gue di sini kepanasan abis trus gue ke uni and ke mall cuma buat beli dvd Last Samurai and Passion of the Christ doang, sekalian bisa ngadem di mall. btw di library jg adem sih, tapi sapa yg mau ke libr kl sendirian? kl rame2 kan bisa ngobrol hihihihi

ya elah skrg malah hujan, duh gimana seh, cuacanya bikin panas dingin aja neh

hot hot hot day in Australia

seumur2 tinggal di indo ga pernah panas sebegitu panas, emang cuacanya lagi giilaa dehhh
berikut quote dr sydney morning herald :


Extreme weather conditions hit NSW today with temperatures exceeding 40 degrees closely followed by strong southerly winds.
Hundreds of firefighters worked to contain about 20 bushfires burning across the state as temperatures reached a maximum of 44.7 degrees in Singleton, in the Hunter Valley.
The high temperatures also caused a power blackout in areas on the south coast for two hours this afternoon.
NSW transmission company, TransGrid, was forced to shed some customer load after a high level of electricity consumption caused two large generating units to fail, a company spokesman said.
Some areas were without power between 3pm (AEDT) and 5pm this afternoon but it had been now restored, the spokesman said.
Temperatures in Sydney surpassed the prediction of 35 degrees in the city today, with Observatory Hill recording a maximum of 40 - 5.3 degrees hotter than yesterday.
Penrith also topped its predicted 38 degrees, recording 41.3, while Newcastle University reached 41 and Wollongong 38.
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Temperatures exceeded 40 at Bankstown, Canterbury, Holsworthy, Horsley Park, Norah Head, Penrith, Richmond and Olympic Park.
But Singleton hit the scorching heights today - reaching a peak of 44.7 degrees - while the hottest temperature in the Sydney area was reached at Sydney Airport where the mercury rose to 41.8.
Record temperatures were broken on the mid-north coast at Kempsey, where temperatures of 41.8 degrees broke the previous record from December 23, 1972, of 40.6, and at Port Macquarie, where a temperature of 42 broke a record of 41 on December 2, 1979.
But the hot weather would not last as a southerly wind blows through the state.
"A southerly blast has come through most of Sydney now," a senior forecaster at the Bureau of Meteorology said.
"It hasn't gone through the western areas yet but it will in the next couple of hours.
"There is a much cooler change coming through tonight and tomorrow we are expecting a cloudy day with south-easterly winds with temperatures of about 18 to 22 in the city."
The strong winds passing through Sydney were causing havoc as trees and branches were blown on to houses and into roads.
The State Emergency Service (SES) was responding to about 30 jobs across the city but expected more calls as the winds spread throughout the state, an SES spokesman said.
There were also fears the change in weather conditions could cause bushfires to escape containment lines.
"All fires are contained but all this could change as the southerlies come through at about 6pm," a NSW Rural Fire Service spokesman said.
"They could change the direction of the fire and if it is a very strong wind it could blow the fires up."
About 100 firefighters and 22 tankers worked on a 20-hectare fire burning in the Rumbalara nature reserve in Gosford, while crews were also working at fires 20km north of Parkes, in Cobar, 30km south-west of Nymagee, and bushland north of Waterfall Way in the Cathedral Rock National Park.
With a total fire ban in place in 11 regions of NSW until midnight tonight, NSW police were today investigating three bushfires they believe were deliberately lit in Gosford early this morning.
At about 1.45am police received reports of three bushfires within a 10-minute period at John Whiteway Drive, Erina Street and Faunce Street.
And another fire at Bulahdelah, north of Newcastle, was reported to have been started by illegal hazard reduction burning.
AAP

Panasssssssssssssss

but tomolo will be lebih panas 42 degreee gileee deh dah kaya di padang pasirrrr

stresssss, ga abis2nya
sebel jg
bt
not fair
but lucky
sial, tinggal 1 point doang

Regrets

sebelllll
kesellllll
reseeeeeee
regretttttssss
thx God for the supplement...
kejammm
wu liao
sad
happy
worried
no way out
jealous
dont know what to do
deadlock
better future??? i doubt it
iss? sebel jg, ga dapet
or kudu bersukur?

move the anger and stress to iss? it is not fair!!!
who to blame?
myself? irvie said, i dont fully understand the concepts, i think that was right but who can help me? i cant find the helper, not even jo and julie.
jo is missing, cant find her through email, need to see her on Monday, asking help again????

oh no, is this the right way to do? Lord, i said u did not fair to me but then it was only a blaming from my failure, i have nobody to blame except that i only can blame You. i know this is not right, but who can i blame? myself? i hate my self as Vanness sang in his song, wo tau yen wo ce ci. i need someone to help me, some one who can direct me, someone who i can share my problems and my happiness, when i can have one?
I am not the one who can believe people easily now because of the past event eg coolvrb. hard to believe and hard to get know other new people. hate to basa basi to start the conversation.

last night went to dinner with new friends, they looked happy and i seem happy too but they didnt know what was in my mind at that time. i can cover it in front of people and people cant know what i felt. or am i too 'angkuh' to share with other people?

i am too stress to think now, dont know what to do. somebody please help meeee

Free train day!

Yesterday was a free day train in Sydney. I took the chance to Chatswood and Bondi. Free of charges except the bus fares. First time, alone, went to Chatswood with no any purpose, well the purpose was to enjoy the free train, I think this kind of thing never happened in Indo :P

Ready at about 11am, jump to the bus and went to Central at 11.30am and arrived at Chatswood at 12.30. first stop to the Ren Tea house, to get some green tea candy then walk to the mall and walking around, visited the place I wanted to -it was in my list-
I spend almost an hour and half there and then went back to Central to continue my journey (ce ilah!!) to Bondi Junction. Well, it was pretty easy and ‘Someone’ made it easy for me by not waiting too long to get to the train. I bought some veggies there and then went home by 400. And know what, I did not have to wait for 400, it came straight away I got out the mall. Huh, sometimes 400 make people angry because of the long period of waiting time. Well that was simple story bout yesterday.

Mars, 戰 神, with大S 和 仔仔 in it, was quite ‘pretty dull’ story for me. Don’t know why people kept saying the drama was good??? Or I did not concentrate while watching it? Or read to much spoilers in forums?? The good thing in this drama is仔仔, he improve a lot in acting. Really good in 陳 靈’s character, although sometimes I saw a bit in consistent in his acting while 大S’ acting seem so boringggggggggg, a type of ‘penurut’ in this drama. 情美 is the one like in this drama, so fierce and alive, gave the ‘spirit’ in this drama.

Now, I am watching Liang Nu lang (duh how to type it in Chinese?) I like Ambrose J cute in that drama hahahahahhahaahha. The story seems ok, but bit boring but flow quickly or because of 1 epi only takes about 40mins? Oh well, let spend the holiday by watching the dramas. Next stop will be the outsider 1 and 2 last epi of love contract and now I am donloding epi 2-4 of magic ring J

很無聊!!!!! Today pretty boring, clean up the kitchen and become kecoa (duh gimana word kecoa in English???) buster

Australian public has chosen Casey Donovan as their idol, leaving Anthony Calea as the second winner. Last Sunday night, the result revealed at a spectacular show in Sydney Opera House. Many of my friends are in Anthony’s side, they voted a lot while me, supporting Casey without any votes hehehehehehe

I am watching Princess Diary 2 now, just cant believe that there was Chinese song in it!! Amaze!!!

Bad mood!

Just called indo, bad bad feeling..... dont know why.
bt, sebellll
alone, ini gara2 baca synopsis MARS, si Chen ling lonely then i just felt that I have the same feeling. norak amat y ah/?? duh tangan kiri kok pegel ya? havent done anything yet but soar gituuuuu

Mango Strawberry

Hmmm, sounds weird huh? I just came back from mall and bought mango strawberry. The fruit is really mango but the skin’s color is red and orange. Strange combination but it taste good, sweet and a bit ‘asem’

Yesterday I finished may exams and finally will be free for the next three and half months. If I take the summer session, I will be free for 1.5 months only.
About the exams, started on last Friday afternoon, the questions are actually not really difficult to attempt but, dasar ga belajar dr pengalaman mid session, took time to do it. Although I did finished the foreign currency’s part but I not so sure that will be exactly correct.

Monday’s exam was hell. I totally screw it up, I did miss one question, I did the question on the question paper and did not transfer to the answer sheet, it totally S***!!!! Make me think of this for hours before I can study for the last exam.

Yesterday’s exam was, actually, in moderate level. I think I did quite ok about this but don’t really know what will happen then but at least I finished the exams.

Today, have no plan at all and then atien called, asked me to mall :). Quite strange since she hasn’t finished her exams yet

Just now, awen just said, need to clean up the bathroom?? What is this? Blaming me? Cant not lah, dah kebal. Who she want to ‘singgung”. Don’t work at me anymore lah. *ups msia’s style.

Back to today’s agenda. Did some shopping di mana $$ mengalir tanpa keliatan, cos I was using my card.huhuhhuhu sedih bener deh rasanya, flow away without I can see it clearly. At least, I got present for my mum, but failed to buy present for my fav niece. Have to look and search at another place some day.

Just chat with lidia and she got the job at coles, duh sebel dehhh, kenapa gue ga dapet? And why they asked me to resit the test without any intention to hire me? Not worthed to do that. Sebel sebel sebel but windy didn’t get the job too, according to her. Ok lah, at least I have friend. Jahat banget sih cari temen sependeritaan.

Next part is another story, remember ‘crazyunswboy’? the one that come to my blog? In week 14 ( i think week 14) when I read blitz, unintended, I read the adv there and found out that he is a 27 yo asian boy desperately looking for a girl to marry. Desperate banget sih? Mau pake acara kawin kilat and looking for a girl with some consideration such as kudu lahir di tahun berapa gitu. Wow in this modern world, still have “young people” if that age still consider at young not mature age. Weird world to my mind.

Hmm wat else? Cant think of any, eitss, just remember, donloded the moonchild, but don’t hv English subtitle, only got mandarin sub, khe lian banget sih? Walah walah walahhhhhh, sebellllllllllllllllllll, ntn jadi ga ngerti dehhh

Ok for now, cos it really hot today and still how till now. Summer is coming and I think I cant handle it really well. Skrg aja even belum summer dah kepanasan

last blog before exams

exams are coming, not soonn but sooooooooonnnnn. I have mine first on this Friday and finish all of the exams on Wed while my friends will start on this Thurs. Hua hua huauhau hauua, when i can enjoy they will be suffering for a little longer time than me hehehhe

nothing much happened since me 'bertapa' di rumah and catch up alots of things. Awen will be home on Friday.

good new, finished donloding The outsider 20 epis yipeeee, so ada stock for holidays and now, try to get Liang Nu Lang, almost finish too :)

audit assignment is back, get 7/10, not bad considering everyone have the same marks :) nonna try to push the marks up because her class did not vert well haha, including me :( Wish me luck for the monday's exam.

ok for now....

Busy Saturday

Today's agenda was studying for the finals. then ketiduran hehe. and then finished donloded Magic Ring and cant hold the temptation to watch so i watched it and not really felt good aabout that drama although ada YC and ce nya hua ce lei jg. i dont like the main actress, gaya mirip sanchai but ga mirip2 amat

then here come the big worries, a wedding invitation that i have to attend on behalf of my parents. hmm heavy duty to be done and felt dont want to go there with afai n atin. and luckyly near the time to go, abon decided to go and i got a friend then. thx Jesus, you are my savior :) Finally i have a friend in that glorious and joyous party.

met some people that i know when i was a kid but not really know now :)

ok deh, end for now
have to back to read 5996 .....

Exams, work, NZ

exams are in a week's time. so rush, hv to prepare it carefull, oh foreign currency translations, consolidation, come soon and i will let it go in next week's friday afternoonnnnnnn. yeah

just got online assessment (again) from coles. dont know wat they want me to do.

read mails from mailing list, a bit inspired of doing some exercise in unigym :)

NZ? do i need some holiday? --> quick desision. must be decided next monday

watching summer scent now, via streamline indosiar

Melbourne Cup!

Hmmm, what in my mind is maybe the race or any kind of championship held in Melbourne. And… it is a horse race held in melb and everyone here especially the local people very excited about it. There are also hat carnival, if I can say like that, it like fashion show with hat become the main of interest. Actually this event held on Tuesday and people already get excited about it.

Oh yeah, last night I have to change my clock due to day light saving….. hmm hate this situation cos cut 1 hour of my precious time. Now I can understand what harle felt at time when she told me, her sleep time was cut. Same here too. Because of this, this morning, I woke up a bit late,well, I have my alarm rung me up already but I keep extend 15 minutes and 15 minutes. *still don’t want to blame my self* take quick shower and run to bus stop, and still late to church cos 400 always come late when we really need.

Choir, have temptation to join but I don’t like the system of how they are practicing. Cos don’t really get into me. This morning I saw vrb and atien join the choir. They performance is quite good, but still I can see, not much practice and not harmonize really well, but overall ok lah

KAmis lagi....

Thursday again, it is end of week 13. one more week to go before the finals. And then here come the finals, thx God I will finish it in mid of week 16 and then freee for about three months?? Wat should i do then? Going home? Really want to but mei you chien le. Ce me pan?

This week ol a lot and even chats a lot, gawat neh ga bisa control and then what will happen to my pr2 and belajar?
Wat else. Hmm today just hand in the last part of 5908 assignment and I didn’t know what is going on in the class. Really not into the lecture. This is probably because of the ‘hate’ of this subject? Nonna didn’t tell what is she going to talk about in the lecture. Sialllll

My best friend has finished her degree and now looking for job, how nice is that? I wish I already finished the school stuff. Many people will always think that studying is better than working, while me keep thinking that working is better than studying. By working u can get money and face the real life ie. Challenge. In uni, u dnot have any experience and sometimes don’t ‘connect’ with the lecture’s topic because u don’t wont and don’t know much about it.

Ook I don’t know wat to type anymore and I still have about 30mins before the class. Wat should I do then? Play games? Hmm rada tengsin jg neh kl maen game soalnya kiri kanan pada sibuk assignment masa g maen games sih?

Boring

Been a long time, not blogging.
This weekend rush with the 10 mark stupid assignment and got bit conflict in the content with the other group. Don’t know I was wrong or them but I really don’t hv confidence in this so probably they were right. Have to online in msn to discuss the assignment. Some people say cool about this but I don’t think so cos I don’t know how to handle the problem and not really get it.
Online twice already and only help a bit of the assignment. Oh in few days I will leave this assignment and don’t want to really care about it anymore.

Awen went home so just me alone with abon now, more convenience now :P no one to control, it just like there was no landlord in you J Freedom!!!

Nothing much I can share here cos nothing special I can tell here. What I need is maybe new dress for the my friend’s wedding in nov, I will go there with afai n atin and leave abon at home hehehehheheheh *:P* there will be much money flow out from my pocket.

Hm talking bout money, just remember, I did spent $120 for my new glass. Gila deh mahal banget, kl di mangga 2 mungkin Cuma 100rb maksimal. Bener2 deh dibangkrutrin ama tokok kacamata di sini. Then one of my teeth broke,again, and cost me $150. lah gimana ga bangkrup, gara2 eat subway for my dinner, I broke that tooth. Huahuhauhauahuhuahuahauhahuuhahuauahauuahuahua. I should can save about 300$ for this month and earn some more but bankrupt because of this. Sial dehhh

Dee has come back to Jakarta from France and looking for job now. She has new degree now and can speak French, too. I try to learn chinese (kok ga nyambung ya ama French??) David thought that I cant read and speak chinese. Huh bener2 pelecehan, he just think I am Indo and then cant speak chinese? Hold on!!!! My grandpa was from China so mau ga mau gue kudu bisa speak chinese a bit dong.
Oh, just remember y mum keep asking her children to learn chinese, now I a bit regreted. Wrong decision is taken at that time. Sebel I wish I can go back to that time again, only the part when my mum asking me to take chinese course.

This days, the day went so fast and I have nothing special to do except work and study for the coming final exams. I want to come home but mum say, just safe the money and stay here, if stay here what should I do during the holiday? Boring man!! Mending ke jkt, ketemu temen2 then masih bisa ntn and jalan2. gimana ya? I really want to come home!!
Help!! Wish me luck in the exams

PS: each sentence I typed, is not connected each other?? Parah neh

20 October 2004, subuh2 :)

Just finished the group meeting on msn an hour ago. It should be discussing the assignment but at the end, it turned out, the boys, discussing the gundam and games which I don’t really understand, but at least in 2 hours we come to decide 2 kind of business risks to put in the assignment.

Felt pretty bad in the beginning of the of the conversation cos they seem pretty know what they are going to talk about, the risks, assertions, ST, AP and so on, but when David away for a while then I felt I can join the conversation. I am a bit afraid of David, he seems arrogant and doesn’t want to be beat by anyone or this is just wat I felt? Don’t think so cos I felt offended by his actions. The discussion ended up with decision, I hv to meet Amanda tomolo and then discuss it again on thurs after the class.

I think this is the time for me to join any social activities in uni by starting to apply to any kind of organization that I interested in. starting by joining the workshop “ how to apply job internationally” and following day with topic ‘ prepare Australian workplace” then I have another information session for international student on the same day. Luckily, every events have different schedules, if not, I don’t know which one to sacrifice.

Have another religious club event for tomolo, asking to join the AGM, and asked me to join the board member. I want to join but … the problem is there are so many undergrads there and not so many postgrads student there so… don’t know I will come or not, depends on tomolo conditions.

Have spirit to read the textbook but then suddenly the spirit gone away…..
Have no jia you le to read the text book better play spider solitaire then read the text book but if I don’t read I don’t understand and cant finish that silly and stupid useless assignment that due in week 13. how can I survive in this subject? Don’t know cos I nees some miracle, jadi inget chi ji (how to write it in Chinese, past memory in Lavender come across my mine, the part where Leo and Xun expected third miracle, almost end of the story)

Almost 2 am now, struggling for awake but I am not doing the reading but blogging. I need something new, new environment, new friends, new social activities. And I really gratefull not join the 40 days purpose of ur life cos u got the book free but u have to spend some money for dinner in ur groups every week and I don’t hv to meet ‘cool’, yeahhhhh. No feeling at all now and don’t care what is she going to do, but a bit sad that she wont be my ‘real’ best friend anymore. I started to realize that the best friend u can get is the friend u grow up together since elementary school, but u still can also hv best friends when u are in uni or work place but (lots of but…) many considerations.

Duh ngantuk deh, malas ngetik then
See ya

Rainy days

This week will be the rainy week cos rain till Thursday.
Today reaalllllyyyyyy bangkrut dah, ke optomestrist, ke dr gigi, duh semua duit larinya ke tempat yg ga semestinya neh. sebel dehhhh

donlod Mars, mentok di epi 6 n 5, padahal tinggal .1% lagi selesai eh ga jalan2 donlodnya sebel ih.
i will try again later hehehehhe, tinggal epi 13 yg belum ada didaftar so next week i will be able to see the whole episodes of MArs :) what a nice life :). refreshing sebelum ujian

wish me luck

Good Day

Yesteday went to class whole day meskipun sorenya pulang dulu. these 2 days Sydney become hotter and hotter, untungnya kemaren sore after i decided to go home, the weather become so windy and cold. Again.. wrong decision yesterday. back to uni at 5.30pm, the weather become so cold which is good but in the class was still hot cos no windows were opened due to lightening and small rain.

Got cancelled the job for today which is good so i can sleep more and do the other stuffs.
Last night just found out that Hotmail capacity become bigger and bigger, 250MB. it much much bigger that yahoo now but only 25% from gmail. this is good because * y i keep using the word good? because today is friday?*

pusing liao... ok for now

Got job
Pusing of assignments
Lots of time terbuang sia2,pusing banget sih
Don’t know what to read and type.

I have watched MARS for the ¾ part of epi 1 and finished epi 2, finished downloading epi 3 last night. Still have no time to watch. I need to catch up with consolidation, mgt accounting and that disaster subject. No work for next week till Friday. Yeah!!! But it is also mean no money keep going into my pocket. Gimana bisa dapet ipod, kl begitu terus ?

Last week got a whole series of Go on the stage. Watched the first episode (again) yesterday but didn’t finished it. This time I watched it with proper subtitle. Seen Li Xiang again. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu hou suai!!!

Now end up in lab doing nothing except bengong. Today’s weather is quite hot but much better compared to yesterday. It was 38 degree yesterday. Should I go home not and then take a bath before the class? It is really really hot now.

Ok decided, need to go home!!!

Monday again!!

TOday a bit males cos not enough of sleep but have to wake up because I have to go to this early lecture. Important :)
Now end up in lab n confuse of what to do. Cant hear hitfm =pukul fm ala rahmat :))
Want to sleep but how? Want to blog but need time to think what to write

Reunion

Just back from StarCity :devil: malam2 ke casino, ngapain ya?
Yesterday was a long day and yesterdaynya lagi jg long day.
Saturday prepared dinner for bday girl, kept her till 12am. then sunday morning, make another surprise with other group.

The most fun was meeting my junior high school friends. Few of them, I havent met since we were graduated from Junior High, 10 years ago. Met the same person with different attitudes. every one has changed. Met susan, she got married last year and celebrated in home town las may. she changed alot and was nice to meet her again. Guess what!! she works at uni, near jo's office. i almost revealed my secret to them when i said i cant aplly for pr. who dont want pr? me WANT it badly but mei pan fa, cant apply unless i pay all of them back to Jo :(:(
Met luna, too but didnt talk to much with her. she is getting merried next year. hmm everyone is getting married, how about me??? stuck with assignment for the next few months. HEn khe lian:(:(

I want to sleep now :)
have a class in 8hours's time

ev

SEbel!!

baru aja terima berita baru, tuh orng kok rese amat seh? udah dibaekin malah ga tau diuntung?
I try to be kind but dissapointed jg neh because of this small silly "sensitivity"

Ok, right now, I dont want to know more about orng itu anymore. please dont blame me for that reason.

kesel aja rasanyaaaa, kl ini vie yg jadi sasaran kekesalan gue and ternyata dia jg kesal sih soal ini but ga tau aja gimana keluarin. From now on, i will only concentrate to my study, no more info bout this people, try to reduce the info and stuff.

Hate Thursday!!

Since I have choosen the wrong subject, I felt really bad when I entered the class. Asking for a tutor, seems no one available for that position.

Seeking help from lecturer, especially she, doesn’t help at all. I don’t understand what is she saying and she didn’t help at all to solve the problem I have.

Don’t know what to do.

Another thing to tell, few days ago, I have a chat with a friend of mine, he is in spore, since he doesn’t hv gf yet, he decided to take a latin dance class to widen his social life. Funny hah? I know what type of person he is, how come he dance? LOL cant believe it.

Remember, David, Shang Hai ren?? I just find out that he is a K-drama addict. Strange since guy like drama? He did donloded from the web and he likes Stairway to heaven. He told me that the drama is really good. While Amanda don’t like Dolphin bay, she just don’t like those kinds of drama. Well, I have met different people with different kind/taste of drama. Haven’t find the one that have the same taste of drama. Hen nan cau tao!!

Stress, assignment, happiness, sadness, jia you!!

Yesterday, I went boating with my housemates and their friends. I really enjoyed it but then when back home, felt really really tired and always thinking of assignments that haven’t finished yet. I think I will freak out because of this.

I went to Cronulla …, don’t remember the name of the boat, it just a pontoon boat and it is really better than what I used to see in Ponti :). The water of the sea is also better, green and blue, not brown, like I used to see in Kapuas River. Some of the guys were doing their fishing yesterday but only 1 guy got fishes. I think he got 2 fishes then we grilled 1 fish and leave the other fish back to the sea. Yesterday’s weather was really good for sailing and fishing, sunny all the day but the wind is sooooooo cold, this is probably the spring weather. I have fun yesterday. Sailing and boating in another country (duh noraknya keluar dahhh, ga tahannnnn!!)

Today, I have a group meeting again, hopefully this is the last meeting cos I didn’t see what is useful with this meeting, well actually we can meet via email. And this is enough, just use the facility provided, use the unimail account to send email and add comment or addition to the assignment. Pretty boring and don’t have much progress though.

Next stop, I think I probably will meet Jo, hand in the survey for this semester and then meet Yew Kong for the visa reference for my family. I have to go to optometrist too, to check my eyes, duh laper neh, pengen makan. Internet di rumah lagi ga jalan so what is the point that I going home? No net means no donlod :(

Nothing to lose

this morning, after the mass, i went to P... to apply for a casual job along with Xtin.
today is my grandma,s bday, ninety something, i dont remember.
i have tried to call home but it didnt connect, even to my aunties and uncle, it was the same. probably the telephone card didnt work properly

dont think of moving in these two days, which is good.
tomolo will naek boat, which is just like ponton in ponti. have to pay $30 hahaha

coolvrb lagi deket ama someone. Hore!!, jadi gue udah ga usah dipusingin ama jodoh2an.

Thursday, 30 September 2004

Dilemma!!!

In between decision is the hardest thing I ever had. This is the most confusing thing I ever had for the whole of my life. I like to stay here but then there was a time I felt not really like this place.
Should I wait till mid of oct till I find out the reason?

Have talked to lius, but didn’t help cos she insisted that I better to move. I think I have talked to many people but didn’t give me the right answer to do.

Friday, 1 October 2004

Rain all the day with strong wind around. I didn’t go anywhere because of rain. Planned to ISS asked for visa and to library to return the book but the weather didn’t not allow me to finish my well planned activities.
Today I didn’t think of moving any more but thinking about other people that disappointed with my decision. Don’t know what to do now, nothing to decide, have to look the progress of the next days.

Monday, 27 September 2004

This morning send an email to Jo, telling her that I am going to see her and asking for tutor. Hmm, I think not many people asking for that subject’s tutor. She refered me to Julie, substitute for Judith. After met Jo, I went to lab to delete some emails that made my unimail full. I met Pak Sulis there, and like always he was very friendly as usual. Just asking the progress of the study and basa basi ala indo. At 12pm I went to common room to meet Yoon and friends, try to finish the study case. Kathy talked a lot about assignment and it actually good for the discussion but.. not good for the progress of the assignment. You know what I mean? She talked a lot is ok, but remember just stick to the assignment and finish it as soon as possible.

After the meeting, well, actually I plan to talk to Sandra, I found out that she is also a fan of Taiwanese drama. She just finished donlod the outsider and I was wondering what drama is she donloding now :), but no chance because I need go to library to meet lius and tell her what I think about moving. I cant know what she felt at that time I told her. She is just fine when I told her about moving stuffs. I don’t know what I told her is the right decision I made?? On the way home I stopped at oriental shop and grab some snacks and did some ‘big’ shopping at coles. Then went to post office to post the congratulation of my bestfriend’s wedding and also send, for the second times, sticker with my uni’s logo that my dad’s want. When I got home I feel don’t wanna move and then when the others come home from work I felt that I really want to move. As soon as I finished use the internet, ayau took the cable directly. Don’t know what to do and what I felt at that time. Rasanya kaya rebutan gitu, begitu lu selesai yg satunya lagi langsung pake. Weird feeling.

I have a weird feeling about this house and I think also the feng shui positions.
Tomolo I will go to Canberra and see the Floriade Festival, hope I can get some pics and send it to mum :)


Wednesday,29 September 2004
Just woke up and langsung internet hehehe, soalnya kemaren ga sempat.
Yesterday I went to Canberra. It was good at the beginning but teached me something, the thing you cheaply that not really worth. Join the Chinatown tour to Canberra is cheap but .. hidden costs nya banyak beeng. I went to visit Floriade, the tulip festival that held every year in Canberra. It was beautiful so I don’t really need to go to Holland to see tulip (hahaha this is an excuse because don’t hv enough money to Europe :D)

First stop in Canberra, visit the embassys, there were so many embassys in that site, china, nz, papua, Korean, Thailand, japan and so on. I think the most beautiful building was japan with sakura flower there, then Uk with the new style of building design. Next stop to Floriade, mana kinds of tulips there. Then parlement house, where john howard do his stuffs. And last stop is War memorial. The last 2 places I don’t interested at all hahaha. It were government stuffs. Don’t like it at all.

Next topic, moving decision still hang around in my head. Before this is finished another ‘bad news’ is coming. Feel betrayed and lied by other people. Hmmm wo hen nan guo. Wei se me people always like this?

Letter jobs. I can tell no more than that. Just disssapointed. There is no one u really can believe here if u just know the people because u have the same difficulty. U hv to know the people from the childhood, that is much better than u know people now. So egoistic and only when they got problem, they will approach u, when they have good things to do, u will be forget it. That is the real world here. Don’t know how to act now. Just disappointed by this situation.

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SAD

She was asking me to move to the other room. What should I do? Move and ask for reduce in rent? I think this is a good idea although it is only $40 but quite worthed. Or other alternative move to other place? Need to consult with lius then tomorrow.

明 天﹐ 我 要 出 uni, go to meet Jo, ask for tutor in 08?? Then go to pengganti Judith right away, then what else yah? Hmmm go to yew kong, ask for visa requirements for my parents. Need to meet lius, too, to discuss the moving stuff.

Tatapan orang itu seakan timbul jealousy in her mind about everything, no sincere and … I don’t know how to describe it. Just feel not right if it always like this. One ‘enemy’ is gone, another one is coming. I think I need to move (is this just ‘keinginan sesaat’?), or this just 風水 here is not good for my education? What do u think? I keep thinking about the position of the dest and other stuffs. Or just move in a month’s time.
Ce me pan ne??

19.10pm

during oz idols I keep thinking whether moving is the right choice or not. When ayau said sorry bout disconnected the intenet, didn’t know I heard the tone different than awen said. Ce me pan ne? I paid it and deserve it. Then I changed again not moving because she said that I don’t hv to move till dec’04. don’t know what is in her mind now. The distance become wide and wide

another thing, I have people when returning borrowed stuff through other people and the original person who borrowed it didn’t said a word for return. They can call or just say something to me. That is enough for me. Is that so hard to told me?

Hmmmm, take deep breath again!!

The other result is out again.

I know it already, this gonna be tough for me, the other side I have perform well and I keep thinking, am I looking at the right result? Today the result is out again and it didn’t come uot as I predicted, lower than I imagine. I though that I take the wrong subject and cant change it now, really toooo late. Ce me pan? Sei khe yi pang wo? Help!!!!!

Difficulty comes when u r not expecting it, really a dilemma, on the other side u survive, the other side u cant survive so what can I do then? Really scary when u have to face it alone cant tell ur friends or even curhat to them. Not many of them will really help. Hmm I use the word ‘really’ a lot of times.

Have been disappointed once make u don’t believe forever, right? I think so.

Xin chi san = wednesday

bener ga s ih pinyinnya hari rabu? sian cai wo cai lab uni, finished my class really really early and i got my result out, thx God, more than i expected. Ming thian probably the other result will be out too, including the assignment. I will meet David again, hmm the Shang Hai ren, ci de ma? He has new nick name, Sleeping Boy, that is what Amanda said :D

This lately, I was thinking that i am a bit of kepo??? Dont know why this word comes out in my mine. On M0nday, when Korean girl asked windy, how come i tried to answer everything on her behalf. I was thinking again, this is probably Windy's response was too slow. I just cant want her to answer, it just like she is thinking harder to answer the easy questions? how come ? then i will be like R?? Oh noooooo, bu ge neng pa!!! and wo bu yauuuuuuu

this morning i have my lunch at 10am, pagi bener yah ? then after that i went to sleep. gila bener kan ? abis weathernya enak bener adem2 bikin ngantuk sambil muterin lagi Energy (hahahha aneh kan bisa bobo gitu pake lagu Energy). Bangun bangun ya back to lecture notes again, read and try to work out the Tax problems. Tax effect accounting here is realllllly strange, too complicated, i think the most complicated in the world!!

Belajar sambil donlod Mars, but i think i wont make it because the net is soooo slow, kaya siput deh and me have to wait orinya MArs sampe di sini deh or wait me come back to Tanah air baru ntn? haduhhh ga sabaran nehhh

Begitu bosen baca ttg tax i continue my day by watching love contract epi 6 (or seven yahhh? lupa deh). I only succedd donlod 10 episodes doang, duh kemaren2 nyesel deh kenapa ga simpan aja linknya. I started to like ah ken (aka he jun xiang) kerennnnn :)

ok, enough for today
got to go home now :)
enaknya net di uni, cepat benerrr or because no one in the lab at this time?

Korean Dinner

Tonight i have my dinner at Seoul Ria, korean food restaurant. Meet her at last, a bit weird to see her like that, i dont really want to talk to her. the air is cold there.
aga2 bt seh tadi, ga tau deh kenapa, probably i sat di pinggir? but on the way home i met ko acai de nu erl, she is so cute almost like ayen, my fav niece. have curly hair, tembem lagi hehe

soal pemilu, duh gue coblosnya cepet banget deh, ga sampe 2 mins kali udah selesai, pake acara tutup mata lagi coblos nya, so kaya ga tau gue coblos yang mana hehehe, and di rumah sampe di bahas, lu pick sei? nan de hai se nu de? gitu nanyanya hehehe

ok for now, kudu bales email oren yg super panjang and gosip abis hehehe

Election!!


Clarification (bener ga sih tulisnya??, looks weird tulisannya). The previous post was typed few days ago not today :) and i have a chance to post it today.

this morning, i woke up really really late, sampe sakit kepala deh. My friends said it is strange that i sleep too much will cause me headache. But this is true, if i wake up after nine, i will get headache. actually i want to prove this is not right but.... i get headache now.

Went to Eastgarden to get bday card for my nephew and wedding card for my best friend, she is getting merried next month so i have to send the card by end of this month. She is my second best friends who getting married this year. Well my first best friend got married end of last year, not exactly this year.

ok back to my topic about election. Next monday, indonesians are going to choose their president. they have to choose one out of 2 so who will be win? who i will choose? depends on my mood on Monday deh, kl mood jelek ga pilih kali yah? but as i said before i like monday heheheh, so after the afternoon class i will go to Konjen directly to 'coblos'. Awen ask me to wait her to 'coblos' at around 7pm, but i rejected cos it is too late then and i will get hungry by that time so i will go alone :).

Tension!!! they have new compilation album with 3 new songs, well actually 2 new songs and 1 old song ' wo men de gu se" with new arrangement. i am donloding it now but the net is soooooo slow today, because of saturday? bu ge neng pa!!!

last night, i watched Love contract epi 3-4-5, wah he jun xiang nya makin cakep aja neh, he is almost the same like zz's character in MG. quite person, helpfull, care and everything lah keren deh. I think i start to like him now, and i like his alis(bhs ingrisnya ape ye?)

Today felt so lazy, dont want to finish my hw and read the case for assignment neh, ce me pan? hen lan tuo ma.

ok deh, enough for now, btw ada yang tau ga seh judul mandarin MArs apa ya? i have beeen asking in forums but no one reply to me. Unless i know the title then i can donlod it through 520music

我不好！---aka I am sad bukan not good “)

I am trying to use the NJ star software to type in Chinese. Oh my Chinese is getting worse, never practice again unless I asked Amanda to speak in mandarin. She seems like to speak Cantonese which I don’t like hahaha

I want to type Today I am very sad, but the word nan guo I don’t know what the characters are. Sedih bener! Keluarnya wo bu hao, apa coba maksudnya yahh?

Now I try again, 我 吃 水 果 ---- meaning I eat fruits :) emang lagi ketik sambil makan pear yashi, kl di kampong mah namanya ak lai, well this is the same fruit that I eat but the name is different.
Here we go again : 你 和 我 还 是 朋 友 马? You and me still friend? Gile terjemahan ke englishnya parah banget sih?
Again!! 王 力 宏 是 哥手﹐他 的歌 很 好 定。This is really really fun!!! Translation: wang lee hong is a singer (of course!!) his song is (nah loh gi mana ya englishnya?) good!! Ok the word nan guo, I find out now 我 很 難 過. 朱孝天 很帥---- Chu xiao tian hen shuai !!!! yipeeeeee, next 燕 玲---- my name :)

Today I wake up a bit early than usual cos I slept early last night. Then busy donloding songs from fav source and cant stop if I dont think about my coming up exam on Friday. I got wei bo de ge, lee hom de ge, soundtrack drama terbaru yg ada si ..(duh lupa namanya, yg jadi temen baek lie wei di KOTT), energy de ge ye you :) Have lunch at nasi uduk Jakarta at aroum 1.30pm then walk a long way to library, have to climb a lot (aka, stairs) to reach the location. Out of breath till that place then buru asked atien to take the book I asked her to recall for me. Thx, it was there so I can feel safe on Friday. After that, keliling level 3,4,5,6 to look for free table and chair to sit and start to study, finally we found it at level 5, Huuh!! Sigh!! Finally find the place for sit, don’t know how come library became crow at that time? Not usual. Then sit there till almost 7pm but I think I don’t get anything absorb into my brain, only a bit maybe, the assertions and the TOC, AP, and STofD, because this is the hardest part of the exam.

Go home to watch Australian idols – live and unforgettable moment featuring the contestants that not made to the first step of the audition but they have ‘nilai jual” such as, namanya sapa ya??, she just scream, not singing and the most interesting one is Flynn, he admitted that he is from Melbourne not from china and he is just like William Hung’s duplicate. I think there were 8 contestant and we have to vote (choose one) so he/she can also perform in the Australian Idols Grand Finale in 10 weeks time. I think this is not really fair, because this just humiliate themselves to be famous. Well, this is only my opinion. Thanks God, the judges are not there, if they were, celaan and kritikan apa lagi yah yang bakal diungkapkan ?

Monday, 13 September 2004

Today, I have 2 classes to attend. I like Monday!! * bisa ditimpukin ama orang2 kali yah? This is because I spend the whole day at uni:) what a life?
This morning, went to class a bit earlier. My watch already showed 8.55am but when I entered the class it was 8.45am. duh kepagian banget gitu. But it is ok! I don’t know I just this class, it is very active and the people in the class are asking the right questions, feel alive in that class. This morning, David (Shang Hai ren) was found (kok kaya berita criminal seh?) sleept in the class. Salah sendiri duduk depan ngantuk. Daerah duduk dia itu sering jadi sasaran contoh dosen. Hahahaha

Afternoon’s class, I have quiz 2, I think I did it well but don’t know the result. I made a miscalculation mistake again but then, thx God!!, I still have time to fix it. Windy said she don’t have confidence with this quiz, don’t know it is a warning sign for me or indicate she try to ‘create’ something creative? Since A’s problem, I became not easily believe in people especially people really around me. One more thing about windy, hehehe, her English sounds strange, campuran logat singlish and sundanese. Weird ha?

Went home around 7pm, at home full of people already. Bit happy but when I found out that “no more food left in the kitchen” à cant really explain it here!!!!
Bt aja gitu loh, then found out jemuran gue yang belum kering dah diangkat bikin bt deh. Bukannya kenapa, kl belum kering ya jangan diangkat dulu dong! Cant u feel it was not dry yet? Then ( I think this is the first time I complain about awen!!) she is kind of sindir ga dapet jatah ntn tipi? Duh tuh anak kenapa ya? Pengen gue tabok deh rasanya soalnya almost everytime she spend her night time in front of tv although she is not really watched it. Should she say it in front of everyone that in that room at that time? Enough for me to “mengalah”, I try not to mengalah lagi. We will see, hopefully I can do it!!! Yan Ling, ni hue de!!!Or today I just was too sensitive??

Album jerry, kedengarannya enak juga neh, although ga gitu terlalu percaya ama kenyataan album jay kalah. Right now I am listening to Jerry’s voice, enak jg kedengerannya tuh ato mungkin emang kudu dengernya malam2 and sepi2? Wah lagu yg judulnya Gravity enak juga neh, ga mendesah2 mirip ZZ hahaha. Duh ken, kapan ya album lu keluar? At that time I have to have internet connection buat donlod lagunya :) I know it is too cruel to have the pirate mp3 but mei pan fa lah, no ori stuff here so for the moment kudu pirate dulu. Speaking about mp3, gue pengen IPod nehhhhhh yg 20GB, looks mengiurkan, kudu tabung2 dulu neh or kerja yah ? duh kerjaan datanglah!!! I want IPod. Last night I looked josh holding his IPod, a present from his mum :) duh mau jg dong. That player looks really small, cant deny I envy that “little technological thing“

Ok, now I am ready to watch love contract epi 3, hope my player can play it tonight!!
Aduhhh kenapa player gue ga bisa dipake puter love contract yah? Wei se me ne? apa karna semalam gue fast forward? Akibatnya jadi gitu deh ga bisa maen skrg? Duh kena kutukan maybe? Jadinya bete banget deh doing nothing now, masa Cuma maen spider lagi?


akhirnya ga jadi den ntn love contract, abis real one playernya ngadat, dont know why. roomie kok tiba2 jadi toleran gitu yah? turn the music not so loud as usual? did she feel what i feel??
dont care!! dont want to know!! yg penting siap2 buat mid exams next friday :)

Sunday, 12 September 2004

Have you ever got bad mark or failed?
I think most of people have been failed before. This is the hard thing to except in life especially in my life. Failed in school, for certain people, it not a big deal on the other hand, for people like me, failed is like the end of the world. Blaming other people or situation that turn to failed you in exams. What I am talking about now? The topic for now is how to deal with failed? You have to leave it behind and start a new life. This is easy to say but to do it, definitely very hard to do it. Believe me!! I have been in this position, you can say till now still facing this position. It is really really hard to face the fail especially for the first time. Probably for the second time or third times and so on, wont be difficult to face cos it had been used to happen. Like a habbit already.

Just realize that I don’t like (you can say: hate) people who say, “you get Pass is ok! More than enough!!” So, are u paying the school fee that expensive only to get pass?? Not more than that? I felt sorry for them. I really, kind of, regret to meet this kind of people. Really regret it. How come I met this kind of people? Ce me hue na? bu xiang sing!

Have u ever met a friend that will that ur friends?
Can u believe that I have met one? First, A make friend with u, then when u introduce A to ur own friends, A takes all of ur friend. You felt left alone out of the line. Then A takes ur friend’s friend, what do u feel? Expecially when A make an announcement that A was set up with other people because of me and my friends? So A don’t have other friends to be set up? What the hell is this? I felt a bit upset with this situation because this make a distance with A, which I don’t want to. A is the one who say that A will make friend with everyone without thinking that A will take benefits (looks like tax benefits, joke: stuff from lectures) from a friend.

Have u ever been criticized because u cancelled ur appointment?
Again, A is the one who make me upset with appointment. A is the one who want every appointment A’s made to be fulfilled by everyone. For example: this morning A made appointment with us, then because of other problems come out, we cancelled the appointment with A and A seemed able to accept this. This is ok then but when me and my friends make another appointment without include A and cancelled because of other problems happened, A then give other people information about us, saying that we often cancelled other people’s appointment. What is this? I never cancelled people’s appointment unless there is some important things happened.
Wow, use many ‘appointment’s word. -à indicated not a good English essay :P

Have u ever felt disappointed when what u want is not fulfilled when other people keep saying it? --à maksudnya apa coba? PATIENT!!! SABAR!!!

Hmm, this page is contained keluh kesah gue selama ini neh. No one I can tell here directly, ce me pan? What should I do?

Tomolo I will have my second quiz, this subject is quite easy but not really easy at all. Envy Windy who can santai aja terhadap this subject while me, really work hard to get good marks. I will also go the other concept’s class. Hope what I get will help me to improve my ability.
Next Friday will have the last mid exam for this session. Wish me all the best ya!! Cos I really afraid with this subject. Then should I blame m.miller who persuade me to take this subject? I should take int’ fin. Reporting, hmmmmm this time make a little wrong prediction. Should I take this subject next semester? I am thinking of taking mandarin as my elective subject which I can panen good mark?? Ding shou, this subject is easy, just the beginner for non Chinese speaker? à good idea hehehhehe. But go to Oz just to study mandarin? Strange hah? I should go to Taiwan or china to study mandarin, right?

Dont know what to write now!!

The boom is the major issues among Indo's student in my uni. Jo just send an email confirmed that we are not going home because of this problem. I just want to curse the people to have plan this boom, damn you!!!!

Jerry’s album wins?? Hahaha cant believe this, how can be? Compared to Jay’s Qi Li Xiang? Who cant believe this from the logical perspective? This probably the effect of Jerry’s concert in Thailand end of last month? Don’t know. Anyway, this is just my thought.

I cancelled my trip to Melb because of the budget problem. Felt sorry to Eri cos I promised her to go there end of this month.
Back to boom issue again, visa bonyok bakal susah dapet deh gara2 kejadian begini, hmm how lonely now, because I already imagine that I will spend this summer with them spending “chien” hahahaha.

Recaps for this week:
Monday, got my quiz result back, kalah ½ point dr Windy, sebel jg neh. No class for concept. Pulang rumah dying hehehe

Selasa, spend whole day read concept text book and get bored by that time

Wednesday, mid exam for concept, after finished the exam check email di lab. Duh dah lama ga internetan di lab. Miss those kind of feeling (apa coba?)

Thursday, take the morning class then kosong di tengah and take the night class. Pulang dah teler abis

Friday, here I am, in lab, typing emails and read news about boom(again!!)

Just felt sad today, don’t know why!!!

Out now

BOOOOOM!!! (again??)

Just received this shocking news, there was a boom in Australian embassy in Indo?? It was more than 1 year ago, when the Marriot boom blast. I was around (not too far from marriot at that time). Now… in Australia embassy? HMmmm after the blast in Rusia, now in Indo ? Dunia udah gila kali yah ?

Duh gue pusing ama dunia ini

Back to business, have not been blogging since this month, ga tau deh males aja then pr banyak banget and exams di depan mata.
Untuk exam yg 40% aja I spend a whole week read the textbook. Duh gawat banget deh, masa kudu whole week buat read the textbook. Mana bacaannya banyak n kudu pencernaan lebih lanjut?

Then simple quiz worth 5% aja gue failed?? Dunia dah terbalik kali yahh? I cant believe this!! Not fair!! Efek dr ini, terpaksa deh ikut 2 different class for the same subject. What a life here??

Ada berita lagi ttg coolvrb, last week, she send us email that complained that we are talking behind her back? Duh kaget aja gue neh, kl mau ngamuk kira2 dong, emang gue sasaran kemarahan lu? She got mad because she felt that we are matching her with some one. Padahal selama ini Cuma bercanda, kl mau ngamuk gue jg bisa tuh because in her mind, kl mau match with some body tuh kudu orangnya yang udah mapan (aka punya rumah n mobil) Hmmm matre abis sih ? I know that we kudu matre tapi kl kelewatan banget ya ga bisa ditoleren dong ? Kata temen2, dibiarin aja deh, so gue biarin aja deh for the moment, jadi males ketemu ama dia hehehhe, don’t worth anything sih meeting her at this point of time hehehhee.

Pengen cerita apa lagi yahh?? Ga tau deh lagi ga mood gara2 soal bom ini dehhhh, duh udah mau jam 5 lagi

Good start but.....

Hmm, today i start my day with good happy nice feeling. Have breakfast, not ussual but, the fact is I have breakfast :). then played spider solitaire. HAve lunch on time and then chatting around with nana n mamat :), met toro through ym, she is celebrating her bday today!!

At around 3pm, trying to finish my audit hw, hmm hate this subject, gara2 malcolm neh gue take this subject. then begitu ready to do the research, the mazda girl went home, itu yg buat bt tau. I was so annoyed when she use the sink and turn on the water tap, how she use the plates, bowls and other cutleries are so rute (baca:kasar sekaliiii). Although the cutleries are not mine but we share the use of it. And when i saw her shoes on the carpet, I cant comment at all, cos i know she will hate me for this, but can tha pan cou right away??? kuai tian pa!!!---> I know this is cruel, but mei pan fa la.

but I admitted that i have made a mistake this morning, before she went ou, i commented on her outfit, " di luar panas gitu kok pake baju kaya gitu?" emang dingin ? (condering she wore jacket, and scarf while outside is sunny). Spring already, still a bit cold but... When I finished saying that, I just realised that I said the wrong stuff to her :P. mukanya langsung bete gitu. duh gue kok bisa sadarnya telat yah?? hmm while i am typing this, she had her dinner already? how come she eat twice a day? i know she is on diet, only eat 1 meal but now ?? eat again ? cant believe this!! but dont care lah, not my problem. but anehnya begitu liat dia aja udah sebel, kl liat2 yg laen2 kan masih kaga sebel gitu, belum lagi watery problemnya, pling plang barang dengan kasar, no wonder landlord aja kaga tahan. duhhh i heard the sound of panci, duh pusinggggg, wish she had not come home yetttt.

duh kenapa komplen terus soal ini? what for? mending cari analysis PEST aja dehhhhh
ehh, just find out pengganti tvfanseries, gara2 kasus seperti napster, bikin forum baru lagi hehehe.

Silly mistake!!!

Hmmmm, sebel deh, I did silly mistake in the quiz this afternoon, hurried with the time restriction and not realy teliti (hmmm old habit, cant free from this ?)

Hope i can do better next quiz which is in 2 weeks time.

Oh then after the class, I have group meeting, I was late, ku yi de :), met Aki in front of Common room, then gave him the disk, dont know suitable or not, hmm dont care lah, if not enough he will tell me.

Hmm, in group meeting, hate DAVID.........., actually he is quite cute :P, but in discussion, omongan gue dipotong mulu sih? hmmm, bit rasialism, he is from mainland but his english is realy really good already, compared to mine :D. Better Elbert, Taiwanese hahahhahhahaha (duh jadi inget ama Zhu Xiao Tian). this time bener2 rasialis neh gue :) ---> kok ga nyambung yah ?
Most of my friends know that i hate product from China when it sell outside china, cos it cheap stuff but u have to buy it with high price here!!!!
The good this is my group consist of no Indo' people except me heheheh, this is the first time i am alone in the group hahahahhaa. last time, there was David( not the same as David Mainland, David Indo yang kebapak2an, hahahahaha).

Speaking about Davis Indo, I just met him in Common room, he is taking the same subject as mine. I do the afternoon class, he do the evening class.

What else I am going to say here...., couple days ago, I created Family blog, pretend amateur, and got respond from soi1, and he was asking me, whether he can create blog that only the people he knows can access the blog. I replied his email, told him that i will find out soon. Padahal, gue jg kaga ngerti hahahaha

ok deh
out of here
ev

Jerry Yan's new album

just finished donloding his new album through free web mp3 and listening to it now.
Comment : the cover page is nice :P look at yesasia.
the songs, hmmm, doesnt touch me much (it is not a "touch down", quote fr Mark Holden, a judge from Australian Idols). Rating i give to his album is 1/2* ???, not really good, compared to ZZ's albums. Hmm, he is improved a lot but not for singing, i presumed.
None of the songs sounds good in my ears or probably, I just listening to much to Jay's Qi Li Xiang and Lee Hom's Hear My Voice?? or Boa - my name??

Overall, not satisfied with his new album, hope Ken will be better, when he lauchs his'.

ev

Quizes and assignments

entering week 6 already, so quick this semester, hopefully will end with joy and happyness.
Thursday and Friday study for monday quiz, while today just practice the pass quizes and been ol for more than one hour.

Go to church already, just felt tomolo is monday already hehehhehe.
Downloading songs from the web that manda told me :P but confuse which songs to d/l. too many choises.

just created new family blog, heard of Soi 1's project for family website :) nice hah? I have think of this before but no money to realise this stuff.

My little sis dah terbang n sampe di Nagoya :) Wow, she is the person in my family who flied to Japan without have to pay aka free :P while me, first to Oz, free. I know this made my Dad proud but the other 'late stuff" must give him bigheadache to think. How can this happen ? what is in her mind at that time and now? i already lost my trust to her. Cant believe her anymore?
duh topiknya japan n oz kok melantur ke mana2 yah ?

Back to uni topic!!! Study study study harderrrrrrr
Jia You! Jia You!!!!!! Ganbatee

Shock!!!

Can belive that, she could do that to my fu mu?
this "late stuff" made me torn into tears.
pantesann, email dr qq berasa aneh that time, but i was no too suspicious to ask more that i want to ask. kenapa ga tanya. this time have to ask, hopefully she will provide long written email for me, kl ga jg, wa telp dah end of sept.

busy doing assignments, quizes.
just passed 1 quiz this morning, and the lecturer seemed already finished marking by the end of the lecture. Can' believe it!!!

pusing urusan tour end of december, oh kerjaan datang lah!!!! ---> emang sailor moon????

still in shock, hmm sialan ( ngumpat jg akhirnya) planning gue jadi berantakan deh(how come i have met people like? i wish never met them ? --> ga boleh ya i say like this ???), urus dulu tear drops, then calm down myself and then have to buat hw neh!!!!

oh ya, yesterday, i met Fr. Tan, kaget jg sih ketemu setelah sekian lama gue ilang dr gerejanya dia hihihihihihi, lari ke gereja city. gereja city much more fun and i like the layout of the church, kerennnnnn and berasaa kaya di europe dehhhh, beda ama gereja Fr.Tan itu,dingin and kaya apa gitu, diffucult to describe.

Starting last week, i take 2 class on concept, tired man!!, hear the sam stuff twice, but demi nilai apa boleh buattttttttt,

off now

AC Nielson's Survey

Just did the survey via phone as Jo told us that there will be a survey for ADS.
the people from AC Nielson, hmm like Indian, speak too quickkkkkkkkk with the accent that i dont really like.

Finished the class at 5pm, met A kiau on the bus, go home, tired alreadyyyy
Today's blog kaga beraturan gitu bahasanya, singkat2 doang hmmmm

telp mirna, minta soal hehehe tomolo baru bertandang ke tempatnya.
Cant go to my room now, dont know what is WW doing now, dont want to disturb her right now but i have to prepare to studyyyyy

Wish me luck for the quiz!!!

Nice day to start with!!

have morning clas
have lunch
check emails in lab
then ready to go to the next class

Feeling not good!!

just got home and do you know what i find out ? Messy man!!!!
just felt like to punch somebody. hmmmm padahal udah niat hati bersih ....., want to punch somebodyyyy, berisikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk tau

just 1 month to gooooo, then hopefully, live happily ever after, Amin (emang Shrek ?? :D)

Merdeka!!!

although to late to say.
These few days, wheather nya tidak bersahabat deh, hujan n mendung, so doing nothing beside stay at home and go to uni. Finish the assignments etc, today suppose to go to Pesta Kampung but i decide not to go due to my assignments and quizes.

Bday!!
Last Thursday was my roomie's bday. Her bf prepared candle light dinner at home so we have to "ungsi" ke tetangga hehehehe. Late at night we surprise her with cake, but the "surprise" became not surpirse anymore cos fire alarm :(
Also in lunch time, I joint the bbq for postgrad, dpt makanan lagi gratis hehehhehe,jadinya hemat uang lunch for that day!!

Olympic games!!
Sudah berlangsung for few days, feel great when the Ozzie team got gold medal but how bout Indo's??? So far cuma punya 1 perak n 1 perunggu, tinggal tunggu taufik, emas or silver neh.
Jai You Ian, Henry hehehehe:P

Enjoying my days :)

This week seems to be ok for me especially after entering david’s class. Much much much more better than the other class. From the blind become clearly seen.

Today is the independence’s day, nothing special here kecuali acara pesta kampun gor something like that will be held in Unisyd, probably wont go there, better read the textbook for the quizzes that coming up these few weeks. Early this morning heavy rain , begitu tau gue mau ke uni eh hujannya berhenti dan I went to RC and got my free ticket movie. Lumayan hemat 10$ buat ntn :P. nonton apa yah ?King Arthur ? hmm looks boring sih kata orang2 but ya gimana?

Oh ya ada International food bazaar neh di main walk, dah ketemu ssesepuh Ausaids, then tidak nyapa sih, ntar aja on the way home aja.

And one good news, Ir is going back to school, gile aja tuh anak, gue dah tau dia pasti skul more even higher than me which is good for her. Tapi kok baru sekarang? Kenapa ga dari dulu yah? Apa belum dapet sponsorhip sebelumnya ? Congrats for her :P
Yesterday was Cleo bday, wah lupa neh sms dia, today indra lagi bday, have to call or sms yah? Hmm call to Taiwan is fun which I have to speak in mandarin before I talk to indra haha, practice my chung wen ? hmm thinking about that too.

Duh email dr babe, dapet komplem dr pejabat2 teras (aka om2 n tante2) karma tidak email or even calls. Ya elah duit ga banyak neh buat telp dank l email Cuma certain om2 n tante2 aja yg bisa email2an. Duhh emang neh nasib orang yang dapet perhatian dr orang banyak (gr.com)

Harle : take the Korean subject hehehe
Blue : where r u ? kapan neh chatting lagi ? tunggu lu ol di hari jumat sebelum II?
Oren : where r u too? Kok ilang aja she, jadinya sering nongkrong di FI yah ?
Go back to home dong :D:D:D:D

My testimonial has posted to the blog :P

nice reading

HOW WILL I KNOW IF I MET THE PERSON I SHOULD
MARRY

The choice of a marriage partner should not be basedon "I get a warm,wonderful feeling whenever we'retogether and I want to have thatwarm wonderful feeling forever, so let's go getmarried". Feelings, as we have discussed, have nologic on their own. They need to beacknowledged, of course, but they need considerableassistance from your brain.Marriage means choosing the person you will spend therest of your life with. This, as you may have guessed,is a very long time to spend with one person. Thisperson will live with you, eat meals with you, sleepwith you,and go on vacation with you. More importantyet, this person will share your children. You need tochoose wisely. The decision should not be made basedon feelings alone. You need to ask yourself sometough questions. The decisions have to be made onsolid considerations.Will this person be a good partner? Is she matureenough to put her own selfish desires aside to lookout for what is best for the family? Is he preparedto be a good provider? What is his track record? Ishe responsible enough to get a good job and keep it?Will this person be a good parent? Can you stand thethought of your children turning out exactly likethis person? They will, you know.Children spend a lot of time with their parents andconsequently pick up many or most of their parents'character traits. You had better like your spouse'straits a lot because you will be seeing them again inyour children.If something were to happen to you, would youcompletely trust this person, alone, with the ask ofraising and forming your children?This is not a pleasant thought, but it is animportant consideration. Not everyone dies at a ripeold age with great grandchildren gatheredaround the bed. Sometimes a parent dies and leavesyoung children! in the care of the other parent. Ifyou feel that you would need to be around to corrector lessen this person's influence on your children,then you are considering the wrong person.Does this person share your faith in God? God doesnot give us children so that we can mold them intothe coolest, most popular people in school. Our job isto get them to heaven. To do that, we need to raisethem believing in God. It is tough to do that if onlyone parent believes.Saying "this is right and this is wrong, and I wantyou to ignore Mommy until you are thirty-five" doesnot work. Small children ask about eight skillionquestions in a single day. The answers to thosequestions go a long way toward forming the kind ofadults they will become. Who will be answering thosequestions for your children?Does this person you are marrying have sexualself-control? Single people sometimes have this ideathat marriage is just some kind of lifelong sexfestival and that as long as they have each other,they will never be tempted by other people. Wrong!There are many times in every marriage when onepartner or the other is sexually unavailable -illness, the last months of pregnancy, travel. Thereare also times when spouses, just get on each others'nerves.At times like this, other people can seem veryappealing. That can be dangerous, because there areplenty of very attractive people out there who arewilling to make them available to married men andwomen. Do you want someone who has never said "no" tosex? If he is not good at saying "no" at eighteen, itwon't be different at forty. Do you want to worryabout whether or not your spouse is being faithful?These are very important questions, and if you arenot comfortable with all of the answers, you shoulddefinitely not marry this person.None if this is to say that feelings play no role atall in a marriage decision. You don't have to, "Well,I suppose that you would make a good spouse andparent, so even though I don't particularly like youI guess I'll marry you'. You need to be happy andexcited about the prospect of spending your life withsomeone. Your brain however , must acknowledge thatthis person as a good catch.Don't listen to your heart alone or your head alone.Wait until your heart and head agree.Take care...

Testimonial Beasiswa

duh, berasa tangung jawab moral neh, kudu fill in the testimonial to the group, cos they already gave me a lots of hints and clues to success for "this". Even my sis jg kena efek bagusnya kok :P
dapet jg jatah setahun, kl gue setahun setengah.

sikon skrg seh ok aja, but mau ke jenolan cave itu yang batal huhuhuhuhuhuh

Yesterday dapet sms dr Coles :) kind of good news, but ol assessmentnya neh yg buat gawat hehehe, tapi gpp, dicoba dulu. sapa tau .... hehehhehe

duh tuh orang yg namanya crazyunswboy, ga salah tuh pengen kenalan ama vero ? emang gue buka biro jodoh ? kl mau kenalan, cari aja sendiri, rese bener, ga tau neh tuh anak postgrad or undergrad ya ? pake acara bilang search compec tapi ke link ke blog gue ?
non sense itu.

finished today's class as usual and just know that David will be lecture in monday morning :) :devil mode: on, together with MLL, join the class :D:D:D

out now... waiting for the Inside idol :P

feeling nothing

these days, lewatin dgn biasa2 aja tuh, nothing special, yg ada seh, R decided not to take that class, yipeee. my life will be better then hahaha :devil: mode on

tantangan terberat ya, have to read a lot cos this session, my subjects that i take, need to read a lot!! duhh mabok deh, kudu learn mengarang idah deh.

pengen tulis testimonial ke beasiswa tapi kok malees ya? the key points already in my head but to type in essay, kind of hen nan eh. ce me pan? sei yau pang wo?

Oh yeah, these few days, i listens to hitfm radio, duh world become beautiful deh haha, cos can listen to jerry's new song, jay, machi new songs. this is so nice, I should thanks to onlyf4.com that give me the link :)

life is beautiful now :P

out of here, mau temenin org lamar kerja

Hair cut

Just cut my hair today after waiting for few months, cost me $31. duh mahal abis nehhhhh. Kaga pernah seumur idup cut hair seharga gitu. Duh rambut gue ilang deh setengahnya, I mean ketebalannya, jadinya kena angin winter berasa sakit kepala neh. Gimana ya ? trus ga bisa diikat lagi, eh bisa sih but lepas2 gitu.

After did my hair, we (atien n vero incl. me) went to eat noodle, then vero asked for my student account to used in unigym. Abis 70$, gue ga tau deh itu bisa dipake or tidak cos not transferable. Gue gatau deh dia mau gimana pakenya, gue jg bingung deh, yg penting sih jgn suruh gue pake aja tuh, seharga gitu mah gue ga bakalan buat aerobic cos I don’t know how to do it and when to do it.

Yesterday, my feeling was quite sentimental, I think, because dikit2 sensitif banget rasanya, apa pengaruh mau dapet? Ga mungkin deh, soalnya belum pernah begitu.

Cuo thian, wo zhi city ken Atien. Went to do some fotocopy textbook. We had to wait for about ½ hour to get our turn to copy the book. Hmm di sini we have to copy it ourself, ga ada yang bantuin, adanya Cuma tunjukin cara kopinya doang. Atien sempat ungkit sih soal ketidak konsistenan gue (menurut vero), yg katanya batal mulu acara, hmm gue tahan neh kekesalan itu. Tapi kayanya dah ga tahan deh

Last night, netty dateng ke rumah, curhat ke awen sih, Cuma gue di sekitar situ jg, yah jadi ikutan dengerin deh, she was breaking her heart (again??). hmm jadinya gue berpikir terus, kenapa semua orang patah hati mulu? Think it positive, bisa ga ? heheheh ga tau sih, abis hati orang laen2, beda ama gue punya.

Then wenny jg talk about when she had married, her future husband want 3 children, girls lagi, katanya biar mirip ama netty, hmm kok ga bilang mirip gue ya ? gue jg bertiga sih but keadaannya beda banget sih ama si net, other family can gather together and talking around, while mine is terpencar2 gitu and cant talk around, even chit chat, cos there a lots of, lots of problems need to be fix. Little bit here, little bit there. Duh pusing deh.

Yesterday atien ungkit2 soal vero bilang ga konsisten, hmm gue udah mau marah aja tuh. Akibatnya skrg gue malah aga2 bt ama vero. This morning aja sengaja telat, emang sengaja trus kebetulan jg masih ngantuk gitu loh and then sakit kepala . akibatnya malah gue ke kingsfor but gunting rambut and then makan and then buat card unigym buat vero n then they don’t company me to library, tega kan ? harusnya sih temenin gue jg, but no problem for me.

Oh ya, vero orangya sepertinya kehilangan kendali, pengen have boyfriend as soon as possible and everyone yg available itu selalu ditanya2 soal keadaan still single or not. Herannya sih kenapa harus set me up with Adrian ? hmm dia mah udah gue anggap temen doang, apalagi lain agama. Tiap kali singgung soal ini, I already tell vero about this but she is don’t want to know. Gile, kl bisa mau gue emosi n tabokin neh, but I always try to sabar and sabar and sabar.

For me, even for fun, sekali2 sih boleh2 aja tuh, becanda sih boleh2 aja, but kl selalu diungkit, lama2 gue diem jg neh. Paling sebel temenan orang karna Cuma mau dimanfaatin doang, kl dia ga ada temen cari kita, kl ada temen kita dilupakan. Gue paling sebel hal ini. Kenapa harus jg ketemu orang seperti ini ? apakah tipe orang2 yg stay di Oz seperti ini ? I know di indo jg ada but… ga sekeliatan begini or gue yg ga pernah ketemu orang yg seperti ini?

Duh kenapa dunia yg gue ketemuin like this ? how come ? I come here to be a better person in education but in social life become like this bad? Oh, cant imagine before. I know I cant type more that I want to type cos many reasons. I lost ‘social life’, miss my family, miss my fav niece, hmm how is she now? Can she read now? Duh really really miss the people I love.

Hm jadi inget soal relationship, I know vero is just like panicking cos most of her friends already get married while she don’t even have boyfriend. Tapi herannya kenapa harus panic and terkesan pengen cari co, and yg penting dapet? For my believe, this kind of relationship you cant force to get one. It is better to look and search the better one. The right one will come when u ready. If you not ready, udah di depan mata jg sia2 kok. This is what I believe. Jgn sampe tiap kali ketemu n kenalan ama co, directly ask his phone number dong. Sekedar socialisasi sih boleh2 aja but jgn obvious banget dong, ketemu co langsung minta no telp nya. Ato emang gaya hidup di sini emang begitu and gue yang kuper? Hmm I don’t think so cos my other friends form other countries don’t look like that.

Feeling and emotions

hmm
have a lot of stuffs to think about
- realtionship with everyone
- uni
- assignment
- other friends
- betrayed
- stress
and many moreeeee

2 bulan lagi ?

oh no,
icant wait anymore, kok jadi jahat ya gue ?
but this is for my health sake.

Week 2 already ???

Hmmm, now is week 2. ga terasa dah mulai kuliah lagi.
this time just want to spread my 'uneg2' aja neh

I started this week quite well in the beginning but later on in the class, i felt bad cos R is back to my class, which (bukan who) i dont really like it. to form the group work, she just acted like the one we really need. i just dont want her in my group, cos it doesnt bring any good progress, i think ? huan kia, what do u expect? altough she talk alot but i still i cant cope well with her. Egoistic people, just contact u when she need helps. if she doesnt need u, she wont call u or asking ur news. and one thing i hate about is that on previous class, she and friends leave me alone in that class without telling me and my other friends were asking me, where is u friends ? do you know what i felt at that time ? i felt not good, not knowing where were my friends, at least she told me that they were moving to other class but she didnt do anything at all.
quite kesel nehh, talk to the friends i cant trust, they just give me positive thinking about her altough they know who is R. Should i do the same too? think positive while in my mind tertanam sudah rasa tidak aman ?

then about ajum, she didnt talk to me for about 3-4 days? can u imagine that ? what is happening ? is it because i move her 'jemuran' ke jemuran yg lebih kecil? i dont really like that some dont talk in home. at least u talk or speak, but this is rasanya pengen tabok mukanya yang keliatan bt terus begitu. kapan ya dia pindah?? i cant really wait now, have to wait for about a month's time ? hmmmm buruan dongggggg, so i can live happily ever after, upss not happily ever after, just like in peacefull altough sometime awen jg cukup ngeselin, but it is still ok lah compare to her.

hmmm i am thinking about ajum again, why semua orang keliatan takut gitu ama dia? i think because of her childish attitude? can u imagine umur 22 itu masih childish? mau seenaknya doang and ga bisa control her self in the society? a yau bilang we, her housemates, have help her but a yau think that she want to be help by us ? i want to help but.... does she want it or not ? who can tell? gue jg sometime keliatan takut juga neh ama dia, mau ajak ngomong aja mesti liat mood dia, bagus or ga, and then when she want to talk, dia ga liat orang tuh, lagi pengen ngobrol or not, nah ini kan yg rugi gue. one think yang buat gue kadang merasa rugi, i cant stand on wajah orang yg lagi or keliatan bt, cos itu akan mempengaruhi situasi and kondisi rumah yang lu tinggal. that is my view. or i am too perasa ? hmm dont know, somebody help meeeeeeee
irvie was asking me to move with her, but some one have to stay in the living room ? nah, this kind of stuff yang made me feel not going to move with her, cos, living in the living room ? u wont have any privacy at all. i know that, and i think she dont know that at all. if this really happen must be timbul masalah deh.

i think i dont want to move at this stage cos have to buy a lots of stuffs, such as microwave, fridge, laundry machine etc, that big stuffs that really dont want to buy because they are quite expensive and when u are moving or back for good, kind of difficult to sell it.

ok, back to uni things. i think i have made a good choice of subjects? but for 5908? i felt bad cos the lecture Nonna sepertinya ga suka gitu orang yang dah pernah take this subject before and taking this again. or this is only my feeling ? the other classes is ok, no problems at all, except rika yang nongol kemaren.

ok for now :P