好久不见

Those words describe what I felt few days ago. Met indra after few years. 她 decided to for good to indo and work at embassy. Yeah :) finally the whole gang can be gathered again. Trying up catch up with them. Atien has moved to Sunter, Ngamino entah ke mana yah hehehe. Yanti got new baby born in Sumedang :) congrats friends

Met Eka 2 days ago. Haven’t met the other. Gonna set the time for meeting, maybe. Mosat and friends are plan to collect pics, video and other stuff that related to high school and gonna make a record for the next reunion.

New journey, This is my new journey to new world. Hopefully I can survive, as my junior said, I can !! 有一 天会的!! They gave me their contact number, really helpful.

Have few interviews lately but still asked them to postpone and they agree to do it. Thx. Next target ………… xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Still 不高 xing about a problem, still become a burden and a friend keep asking about. I don’t know who’s false is that, but this is a freedom to speak as another friend said, don’t worry, you have your freedom as long as it is ur self and u don’t bother other, that is alrite. In case other people bother about that, then their bad luck, sapa suruh ikut campur, bener toh?

Anak2 ribut soal GAM, takutnya ntar jd Negara federal dgn adanya pembagian hak keuntungan yg 70:30. well Makin hari anak2 makin aja aktif and responsive about the country thing and initiator nya dah ganti org, takutnya ntar new semester begin, ilang deh semangatnya, but so far so good and aga2 bete cos only can update from the news and not join directly to the events yg jarang2 terjadi ini

Receive an email from mamat, reporting the details about wenny’s half surprise party hahaha. Kok bisa sih ketauan HAHAHAHAHAA, anyway, thx for the report and again, Happy Belated Bday to Wenny. Another wenny, will celebrate her bday this weekend and the next day is her Good day :) Congrats friend

Journey…
I have to end this old journey and start a new journey from now on and everything must be in new :P Setting a new goal and ‘cuek’ for the rest, good things need to be kept and the bad things should be throw awayyyy…..

Need to catch up Yu Le Xin Wen and updates everything soon
Ok for now and then next, need to be well organized.

Merdeka :)

The Best Day Of My Life

Today, when I awoke, I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever.

There were times when I wondered if I would make it to today; but I did! And because I did I'm going to celebrate!
Today, I'm going to celebrate what an unbelievable life I have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make me stronger.
I will go through this day with my head held high and a happy heart. I will marvel at God's seemingly simple gifts:
the morning dew, the sun, clouds, the trees, the flowers, the birds.

Today, none of these miraculous creations will escape my notice
Today, I will share my excitement for life with other people. I'll make someone smile. I'll go out of my way to perform an unexpected act of kindness for someone I don't even know. Today, I'll give a sincere compliment to someone who seems down.
I'll tell a child how special he is, and I'll tell someone I love just how deeply I care for them and how much they mean to me.Today is the day I quit worrying about what I don't have and start being grateful for all the wonderful things God has already given me. I'll remember that to worry is just a waste of time because my faith in God and his Divine Plan ensures everything will be just fine.And tonight, before I go to bed, I'll go outside and raise my eyes to the heavens. I will stand in awe at the beauty of the stars and the moon, and I will praise God for these magnificent treasures.As the day ends and I lay my head down on my pillow, I will thank the Almighty for the best day of my life. And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child, excited with expectation because I know tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life, ever!

Do you know of others who might be waiting to receive it from you?

Life is so beautiful

Life is nothing but a stage
Everybody give their best performances for their dreams
Sometimes wild at heart sometimes sad at tears
I often dream myself on a stage (with a microphone)
People, flowers, cheers, loneliness
Then I wake up and say to myself
This is my life
The way I choose ::)

Being educated doesn’t mean that you have achieved the highest education level. But educated act will show who you are. It also indicate that what you act is what you get from ur education society but sometimes, people don’t think wisely when their act, just want to make other happy(in their minds, they think so, but others don’t think so) but they don’t think it was not wise at all.
Use money to make other happy is not wrong totally but the way they act will lead to the misunderstanding. Most of the people think that money can make others happy. That is right but the WAY they do it should be right too.

Working --- tergantung ato menggantungkan diri???

I start to like this words ‘different world and different views’. It looks so match. What you think maybe the same in some way but the main is totally different. Kacian dehhhh hihihihi

Stop to give any comments unless they ask for but it doesn’t mean don’t care.

"Incomplete"BSB

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my babyIt’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world aloneI wanna let you go (alone)
I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep

I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all
I’m going to be is incomplete
Incomplete

Devil besides you…..


Have you ever hear those words ? I believe I do :) Psst: hint: ada jun xiang hehehehe

CLBK? Should I do that? Back to the routines that I used to do? I need to catch up back to yu le xin wen more often to update myself hehe. So far try to do that :)

Childish, …. Harle, thanks for listening just now :) really appreciated hehehehe
Hidup Cuek hehehhehhee

Yida 的歌很好听, and the meaning behind the song was so good :) na ge nu hai tui wo shuo …….

“kesenjangan social” in term of scholarship ternyata emang bener2 terjadi hehehe, ada sebagian org yg merasa di’senjang’kan oleh beasiswa ini hehe, I know some would think like that and some not but at the end, yg ga dapet and felt kecewa pasti felt like that. It was proven. Have seen a lot of different type of people who know about this. Again, the ‘mixed’ problem also menunjang hal ini terjadi hehehe. A friend of my yg berpikiran terbuka, malah tidak berpikir seperti ini, she was thinking that it is a gift from God that you have asked and waited for a long time. See…… is every one has the same perception about this problem? Or just a step for better life and better future?

And again about my own country, kenapa ga maju2 sih? Padahal byk intelek2 di bumi Indonesia ini? Jadi pengen ikut monthly discussion minggu besok but gimana hiks hiks, only can get up date from them soon

Incomplete from bsb, really know what I mean for the moment hehe

Merdeka!!!

What do you think ??

Being stab from behind…. How does it feel? Hurt? Or disappointed? Or even worst, feel happy? Must be sen qing ping de ren then :(

Different opinions…. It is common as long as it doesn’t cross the border lines

Friendships …. Truthful and sincere? Even in different opinions?

Views…. Everyone has different about this but does it matter to certain people? How to maintain that?

Principle….. how can people constantly defend their owns principle?

Being minority in the society? How does it work? Is this fair?

Being a leader?.... Is it easy job to do? Who said so?

Believe but don’t see….. this is hard to do

Word ‘Thank You’, does it mean a lot to you? How people use this word in the society? What does this word mean to certain people? Does this word mean a powerful meaning? Does it mean something to me?

Working in the field that God have provided for you in the future…….

How to refuse an offer?

Being in the middle of a situation? … is that healthy for ur mind and reputation? A good listener ? who, where and what?

What is life about? An imitator ? Or a creator? Or initiator? ---> Accept or refuse?

It is good to be in a dream land or in a real life?

Try to release it quick and soon you’ll get over it

These questions teach a lot of thing about life and how you can survive in the society, it also an indicator what you can and can’t do in this life and society. Every questions there has the consequences. Case is CLOSED:D:D:D:D:D

How do you feel being spy on? Happy or angry? How you should act? Have an action or say nothing?

How do you feel when somebody break the promise? Is this an indication of ignorance or just forget the promise that people have made?

Reality


Money can be an enemy. It was proven in many ways. With money you can get everything you want and even, you can ‘buy’ a friend. On the other hand, without money, you can do nothing, this is true.

Got a scholarship is always a dream for me. It was a blessed in that year that I was announced as one of the awardees. Thanks God!!

Well, the journey of the dreams has begun. Have a chance to feel how is like to study in overseas was a dream come true for me. Because of the monetary crisis 1998, I can say that I really hate the government, well, I don’t have any rights to blame government because of this.

Having the opportunity to see the other part of the world, make my mind clear. No wonder, in every Ausaids discussion that I attended, seniors always encourage us, go back to ur country and built them so Indo can be a well developed country. I understand now, why so many lectures and government servants were sent to study in Oz with the ADS’ help, they have high nationalisms with a positive mind that after they go back to Indo, they can contribute to their own country and built the country. Reduce the poverty, educate people by sharing their knowledge they got while studying in Oz. I think, in their mind never cross the idea of staying permanently in Oz and get the working permit in Oz. it was crossed in my mind for a while and a bit bete when friends and family asking, when r u plan to go back there? You guys don’t know a lot of things so I cant blame you guys but please don’t ask me such that questions. I am sick of it for the moment. And also the relationship that I have with ADS is much much more precious that I can get. This also doesn’t mean that I cant stay in other country but the consideration is for the good of own country. That why, a friend that I know, when I asked him, wat is ur next target? Go to other country? Well he said, what for? Just be graceful and work in the field that you have here in you country. Well, now wo ming pai ta de yi se

Going back to Indo, make me realize a lot of things need to be done. I don’t try to be nationalist, but that is the reality. As a good citizen (how good??), I need to develop my own skills to build my own country. It doesn’t matter where I work, at least I can give sumtin to the country that give me the chance to see the other part of the world.

The reality I saw here was so so so pathetic. No strict rule, with money, everyone can gain their aims. No queueing, everyone can go the counter quickly to pay, for example.
The infrastructure was not maintain well. With the chance to see the other world make me realize that so many things need to be done with my own ways. No need to ask how I can do it but just pray for me that I can do the best for the country and also pray for my fellow friends that still studying in Oz and when they come back, we can all join together to build our own country.

Walah, ini kok tiba2, I myself being so ….., apa karna mau 17an? Or karna baca email di milis?

Ok next, back to money topic. It is true that money can be the most powerful enemy in ur life. When you have a connection with people and it deals with money, be careful, money can be friend and also can be enemy but I believe it mostly become your enemy.

By having enough money, you can, for example, go to overseas for study, while when you don’t have any money, you can do nothing, even for breakfast or for lunch. Having the chance to study in Oz, make me (again) realize many things.
Money can get you to the highest place, can give you the better life (of course) and chance to stay in other part of the world, money can get to the most enjoyable moment you want to have but remember it was just a moment, as soon as you don’t have money, ur friends will leave you soon and you were all alone for the most of the time.

Complaining about the life and don’t have enough money are also not really good choice, everyone should be graceful of what they can have now, even you only can afford your lunch. God has provided everyone with their destiny and talents, all you can do is 加油 and stop complaining and keep trying. Even you have enough, you will still complaining that you don’t have enough. That is the human nature. Human is a complicated creatures. ----> I like this quite. But how complicated? Everyone can made is become easy when they face it bravely and not influence by other.

Why I become so ignorance this lately? Well many reasons, and I don’t need to tell anyone about this. The one who really know me will know it directly and never ask about it. Facing the real reality is so hard than anyone can imagine. Being in the dream land is just a dream that will end soon. Probably, I was a bit convince by the age thing and the shio thing. I admit, I can more believe to wat the ‘age thing’ said better than the other. The waiting period and the commitment that have by the shio thing, can ruin everything too. How can I act based on that?

Money also can ruin friendship and having different views also can ruin ur relationships with others. That is for sure!!!!! I think I get the message that being in the different world, people will act different to you and see what they can get from u. well my experience during my study, teach me more than I can get, more that I can reach and teach me one thing, don’t trust people 100% because it can be ur number 1 enemy. You can trust people 99% and you have to save that little percentage for urself for self defence. Actually this is not right that you don’t trust people 100% but no other way I can do that, at least I trust you 99% and I didn’t expect to get the trust from people 100% also. Even though a friend said to me, try to believe other and let them grow, it was so hard, because it was from a different world view different from me and friends.

2 nights ago, I got a called from old friend, complaining again bout old decease, that still keep membayangin 她 and I told 她 that I have throw away 她 belonging. Well this is not my false anyway, I have asked for advices before I do it. We talked for a long time. I felt a bit guilty for that, because of other’s false, I have to carry it a bit as my responsibility. Well, I know this is one of the good way, but that sickness, who want to have that kind of decease? No one and no one want to have it.

Just now, chatted with Dee, asking me to go the Eri’s n awen’s de hao re zi. Ce me pan? Should I go? Well, it means that I have to go to Jakarta soon, but my business here is still unfinished, how can I leave?

Also just chatted with Jen, she was soooo kind and invite me to visit her sumtime in the future, so lovely friend that I never meet before. I also have a promise to meet toro this month but did toro come back from Beijing yet?

Send a message to blue just now and let her know that I am in the country now.
I also have the chance to chat with irvie and mamat :P:P but not with aren, he seemed so strange. I felt a bit strange and make me curious to think that he did intended to block my msn? Since irvie and mamat can see him and I cant or my internet connection is suck??? Strange rite? Well probably the internet connection is suck, hate it!!!! Well this is the homework that I need to fix for this country :(

Emailing oren is one of my new activity now, since oren was missing for quite a long time and she only contact me and asking me, others emails that I cant even remember. Nice to hear from oren, probably I can visit oren sumday in the future hahahaha,hope can meet harle at this end of the year and I also hope that blue can finish her study by the end of this year or she has finished already?

More good news to come, yanti is going to have her baby in 2 months time, one of my bestfriend is going to get married, end of this year, well she was actually my auntie but she refuse me to call her like that since we have know each other before I should call her auntie hahahahahaha. Congrats!!! One more good news, I am going to meet Indra, probably, in few days time, when indra got back here to extend the passport. Yeah, I need to arrange this again.

I need to set up my life again, it is not going to be the same anymore. In the last 1.5 year, I can set up by myself but now, since I have to face the reality and say good bye to the dreams land, I have to follow my heart and the rule and authority (that is the bad news)

Got 2 job interviews now and still waiting for the best to come.

Lessons for the day :
Money can blind people
trust is one of the hardest thing to do
facing the reality is difficult when there is no trust and limit
being cheated or being lied by other is also the hardest thing to accept, especially, people say the other way around
people crossing your privacy limit is unforgettable and no mercy for that

Lost....

Everyone has their own life, even their own privacy that not everyone can cross that limit. Well being cheated is the worst thing ever happened, especially when it is ur privacy, the place that where u can do anything you like and what you can act. Saying that forget the connection, but still keep reading it through all the way, well don’t care start from now.

Being cheated and again…. Cen de hen wu liao de shi. My own problem hasn’t done yet, another problem is lai le. Wo ce me pan jue ding na?

I finally found oren, yg sempat menghilang sekian lama, gara2 job training. Hv been contacting blue n harle, but still cant find where they are

Well in this world, I cant trust anyone for sure, my future is in my own hand, I know this will be happened some day and I didn’t expect it would come so fast. Being confused and must follow the rules that make me see the world clearly. Being mixed also not a solution, well, that is the problem that come from the problem, not one can avoid it, but well, actually can avoid it but The One said different for this, and mei pan fa, u have to follow that.

Life is a happiness where you can enjoy it
Life is a sadness when you cant respect and be gratefull of what you get
Life is sumtin so unfair to ‘different world’ people
Life is sumtin fair to the humble people

Well, the life is not that easy to face, the main topic for today is cheated….
A big word that mean a lot to a certain people.
Welcome back to really…. The dreams are over now

The life must go on..

It has been a week, I have leave Sydney for good. I really miss that city, the city that I have my own life, no one can interfere my life there. Back to my home sweet home, I realize that so many things I need to finish. 妈的病 also need me to take care off. Luckily it wasn’t that dangerous.

How is my future now? Haven’t done anything yet since I got here. must I wait for the immigration stuffs done? Or just apply to anywhere I like? The problem is working experience that I don’t really have. Ce me pan?

Still angry with mamat, since he confessed that he pretend to be lisbeth, asking me the ‘limit’ question that I wont give any answer. And I cant even think how come it was mamat, did he had sumtin to say to me?

who don’t feel sick of hearing, when heard people complaining the same problem everytime?

While myself, keep comparing the life style here and Sydney. It is totally different and I prefer the Sydney’s style. More convenience and strict to rule and I don’t feel strange there while here, people looking at me fiercely and I felt scare and even sumtin insulted.

What should I do now?

no title.. bueeeeeeeeeeteeeeeeeeee

Well, being at home is one of the part that I will not miss. Problems come one by one.
Still enjoying my jobless period but I hate listen to people complaining. All of the problems it just about ‘it’self. Different world’s people can easily solve the problem.I had chatted to mamat about this, and he said, yeah, they have the money and no big deal. And I also think that is right, too but g didera terus ama masalah yang sama, sapa yg ga kesel? And my scholarship terms yg dijadikan patokan. Well, kl emang mau org2 lu ke tempat lu and stay with you, go a head, ga usah lewat2 aps or ads, because that is not the right way. You can do it urself, it was proven by you come there alone, not the same as me nana n mamat. Well everyone had their problems and try at least solve by themselves and (again) don’t use me as comparison, I hate that.

Gud news, finally, oren email me and wrote to me wat and where she is these days. Good to hear from her. At least she didn’t missing at all.

Intinya g kesel huehueheuehehhehuuhee

Home….. finally :(

Last Friday was the hectic day I ever had. Busy thinking of the extra luggage that I need to pay and then ended up I don’t need to pay at all because I joined my luggage with Windy and aren’s foot help “:D

Friday 29 July 2005
Morning, busy packing and confuse. Later on, in the afternoon, aren came and nana also came, copying the old pics and then went to dinner with irvie and went to nana’s place, helping her packing.

Saturday, 30 July 2005
The day that I expect never to be happened was happened. Everyone went to airport to say good bye to me, I try to be tough and hold my tears but Windy’s keep falling and I also ikut terpengaruh. It’s really so say that I leave them there because I like it there and I cant go back and stay there for the moment. But at least I didn’t cry in front of them but bombay in the waiting room.
The flight from Sydney to Bali, took 6 hours and arrived at Ngurah Rai Airport at 2.05pm and then around 3pm flight to Jakarta. Arrived at Jakarta 15.20pm and then say goodbye to windy, rika and fahri. About fachri, ternyata he is really annoying and childish. Well, enough, talking about other people. Arrived at cengkareng, took the luggage and then straight away to hotel. Well I was a bit freaking out when I met local people, they’s look so fierce and like seeing me as a good prospect for their next victim. At instant, I hate Jakarta, I really want to go back to Sydney, I felt more safer there. In Sydney, no care what you do and no one care who you are but here, I have to pay respect to elders and at least try to fulfill their requests. It is hard to be the first in the family.

Well enough of that. I think I really got W Curve Syndrome and I actually try to reduce the syndrome effect. I keep comparing Jakarta and Sydney. When I was at jayakarta for dinner, I felt sick and confuse because the area is so dirty and hot, different from sydney’s. and then when I was looking for the new prepaid phone card, I also kept comparing the providers in Sydney and here. I keep thinking, where else on the earth I can get free chat time and felt so close to my friends. Now they are really far far away from me, hiks hiks hiks hiks hiks. Inside my head, I kept telling myself, stop comparing, stop comparing but it didn’t stop comparing and the worse is when I watched tv. The programs became so worse compare to Oz’s tvs. How could that be? And I also felt sick of the commercials, so jijay and hueksssss.

Well, the life must go on and where I can be end up to? No ones know about this, even myself. But definitely, I dislike staying in Jakarta because of everything. I am sick of hot weather and dirty air and the fierce faces that I wont forget and make me aware all the time and felt unsafety.

Going home and leaving Sydney for good (hiks hiks hiks)

It has been a year and 6 months, I am in Sydney. Thinking of leaving this city, really really make me sad. There are a lot of memories here, the sad ones, the happy ones and my struggles to get my degree. Finally, I got my degree at 15 July 2005.

Last Tuesday, we, the GC team minus yuli and ditya, went to Wollongong to visit Nantien Temple 南天寺. We spent almost the whole day there and after that, went to Kiama, a small town with it main attraction, blowhole http://www.kiama.com.au/attractions/blowhole.htm We arrived there a bit late, well, because of, traveling with 15 people.

Last Thursday, we gathered again to compile all the pictures that we took during the Wollongong trip. And the and of the meeting, suddenly, friends were giving me, nana n budi, graduation presents. I was so touch and when I was reading the card, my tears suddenly fall down. I think all my friends were shock, they never saw me cry or something like this. And Rahmat make a joke on this event. He kept saying to me, that he saw a friend crying but he didn’t know what she crying for. I was so sad at that time, thinking that I will leaving them soon and cant spent the time with them anymore, cant traveling with them, cant hang out and cant gather with them until unlimited time. friends in uni's time is forever. in working place, it is hard to get a good friend.

There were so many memories to remember and it will last forever in my heart and my mind. Thinking of going home, I also feel sad, first, I get used to staying in Sydney, it was so much better than I have to stay in Jakarta or Ptk. In Sydney, I learn to depend fully on myself and, well, sometimes, I ‘used’ depends on some one else but not too often, try to do it myself until I cant do it and need others’ help.

Help……… I don’t want to go home, ce me pan?

bugs bunny
isenkk's property

Nan Tien temple
isenkk's property

Holiday

Last week 11-14july 2005
I went to Gold Coast for holidays
We, 12 of us spent the holidays by visiting theme parks, Sea World, movie World and Dream world

and just now, got home from Wollongong, visited Nan Tien Temple, it was quite nice and then went to Kiama to experience the blowhole there and last stop for the night was Wolomooloo (i think the spelling is not right:P), just to have a look, how the hot dog in that place look like

Holiday and jobs hunting

Today, in few more mins, i will going to airport :P
Sea world, Movie World, here i comeeeeeeeeeeee

Well, just checked email, it sended 4 days ago, and I got an beginning interview in one of the 'cool' company :P

well, will blogging soon as i come back on thursday :P

wat a world...

In this post, I probably gonna a bit racist.
Gimana tidak coba
Dah masih kecil dah sok nasehatin g, rese ga si?
Berikut percakapannya :
A:aku mau nasehatin beberapa hal sebelum lu pulang indo
A:tenang
Trus g bilang ga mau eh dijawab: tapi saya Harus, buat bekal masa depan

Buset dah , bokap g aja ga pernah nasehatin g kaya gitu, mang apaan?

Kind of cant except tis, bener2 too much, campur too much, don’t you guys think?
Duh, kl bukan karma janji n hutang budi, don’t know wat I am gonna do then…

2 days before my last exam in uni ….


Ok, I cant wait for my last exam in Uni, after that no more exam, the next is holiday to GC :P
Yesterday, called home, talk a lot and I think I was a bit high temper cos of the parents’ (not my parents, but elders, if I can say that) behaviors that so ngatur2 and think that they are right in everything. Not all of them are right at the first place. Yes they are more experience, you can say byk makan garam, I can understand but at least u guys have to understand dong what are young adults nowadays thing about the life and reality. Cant just judge from ur ‘old’ perpective. Bit piss off because of that.

Kaget ama soi sim gitu, buset dah, langsung aja suruh beliin boneka seharga 600k rp, ga salah neh? Gimana g bawanya? Ga piker lagi buset dah, asli g shock abis cos I didn’t expect that to happen

Well, going home is still a problem. One side, I don’t want to go home, just felt that, this is where I should be, so aman tenteram, kl mau ketemu sodara just sms or call. On the other hand, I have to go home regarding to the end of my scholarship. Soooo sad, leaving all the thing that I have built here. Maju kena mundur kena. Kl pulang jg kudu beli oleh2,duh $$ dari mana?? Duh you chien ren, ni zai na li?

Life….

What is life? Life is so complicated that every human must face …

I just finished watch Desperate Housewives, the soap opera type that actually contains lots of life value. The story is about the groups of housewives life in the suburban. Their life is sooo complicated. No family is perfect and I was thinking who can have the perfect family? Everyone has its own standard about the perfect family.

About life, there is many things to do in this life, such as studying (duh geli banget yah) and then chasing dreams that will come true someday in the future..

Trust is the key, without the trust, life is useless --- > this is wat I put in my msn nick name. and the best is yet to come so try to chase it and pursue it

Exams...


Few hours before exam, i wish i can do it now, cos the burden in my mind......
after tomolo, next is next thursday...

pusing dah.....

Exams dah didepan mata

well, just got my 10%marks, asem g cuma dapet 8/10, kok bisa yah? n rata2nya jg 8.5??
always below the mean. sial or wat? gimana dong buat ngejar D? bisa dapet ga?
just hoping that my second case, got 15 or morelah
sukur2 dapet gede, kl ga, ga tau lagi dah
kudu stop net jg neh , gimana dong?

duh pusing'
byk urusan di saat yg bersamaan,
exams, holiday, going home, apply for jobs,
duh ga tau neh mana yg mau didahulukan? semuanya penting banget

well, bis liat prenster, byk hal baru yg terjadi,
friends, changes, study, life, married, travelling around, entrepreneur....
duh g stress gara2 prenster neh, bis liat jadi sirik.....
duh kan ga boleh sirik, ada jg berusaha n jia you!!!!
come on!! Ganbatte ne!!

Penrith Orange Valley

Well, that is the pic that i took this afternoon :)
I went to spent the day at Penrith, it was about 2 hours drive from Sydney.
First stop, at Honey Farm
then went to The Orange Orchard :P
Quite fun though, it was tiring now and hve to sleep now cos working tomolo :)
earn some $$$ :P

Yg penting buat gw and Blue, Isenkk tetap nomer 1!!!! Cieh!!!! JIA YOU!

*thx sis, boosting up my spirit neh :P
Ganbatte ne!!

Still lost

This will be the few last posts before exams, I guess.
These last few days, I have been spending time not effective and efficient. Don’t know why, maybe the weather is so nice for sleeping and make people become lazy.

Atien’s case, I don’t want to know much. Yesterday, I met her and she showed weird attitude and I don’t want to care that much, although Aren told me a pretty strange event between them. This lead me to ignorance the ‘friendship’ term. It is not that I am not a good buddy but the privacy and my limit about other’s personal life. I don’t want to disturb that.

Then yesterday is bak cang day :P irvie cooked dinner, fish man!! Hehe, quite luxury for living hereJ

Just now, V called, because of lack people for tomorrow’s fruit picking, she asked me to ask my friends to join, enak aja. Emang temen2 g tuh cadangan? kl ga ada yg mau baru cari mereka? I cant except that, g ikut jg because I never been that place before and I try to fix that ‘broken relationship’ with her. Besides that, I also want to spend my time by going out from Sydney :P

Kesel aja gitu lohhhhh, sabar sabarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr


.hahaha back to book now :P

KECEWA

Well
I just found out that I was left behind
So I will try to leave them also?
Aren, irvie know the truth already but didn’t tell me, I only can guess and then aren yg ga tahan, kl g gat au, then he insisted me to ask her about the problem.
Well bit kecewa, well my ego is back, don’t care lah as long as they are happy. How come I am the last person to know? Kecewa man!!!or did I do sumtin wrong ?
kenapa g harus the last person???????? am i too caring? or malah ga peduli?

tired

Haven’t posted anything for weeks. Hv been pretty busy and hectic weeks.
Last week, 2 of the assignments due on the same day and same time.
Last week also busy preparing GC trip for next months. Everyone asking me to arrange the trip which I don’t want to because it will caused me to be hate by others but I have to do it anyway since no one want to do it.

Hv made a critical mistake last Sunday, but I will take responsible for it. Been away abit from friends, dunno why, I felt a bit sad but forget it for a moment because I need my time for preparing my exams.

Well tonite at 9pm it the last lecture I could have for the rest of this year. No more lecture no more study starting next month. I am going to have my exam on 23rd and 30th this month, after that I will be no more student but jobless. It is the time for me to find job, tired of asking the right jobs, hope the miracle could happen to me.

Yeah no more school, quite enough for the moment

havent post anything for a week
so busy with working n myob
should be less busy the week after

Stress and no way out ….

These days have been so busy. This week I have worked for three days and my timetable need to be adjust again. There are so many things happened in my life. The good and bad things, both of them came in the same time.

Still confuse and cant decide what I have to do after graduation, my sis take another big ‘instant’ step to become entrepreneur. This is such a big step and I don’t know what I should tell her for the best. Please help us, guidance us for the best.

I cant think when the last time I cried, and just now, it just come naturally. Pack with lots of problems and thinking. Never been so difficult and every thing seem so normal.

Hope the good and the best thing will come at the right time and I expect no more than that.

also no title

$$$
myob
employee benefits
tired....

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我很累

Tis wiken

this weekend, just fixing and reformatting my laptop. it took 2 days to fixed it.

byk yg curhat ama g and g jg bingung.
about life, relationship, work, uni etc
sumtimes ada yg sentimentil kl curhat subuh2, i dont even know wat i have to say but well, face it
then si clarte gave me alot of real world advice, SMART
S= specific, artinya harus jelas target loe itu apa
M=motivated, artinya targetnya harus bisa membuat loe merasa termotivasi untuk mencapainya
A=achieveable, artinya targetnya itu harus bisa dicapai
R=realistic, artinya targetnya itu harus dapet direalisasikan
T=time band, artinya targetnya itu ada waktunya untuk kapan dicapai

this is also a post from the past
last chinese new year i think :P

Diary of isenkk
22 January 2004
Happy Chinese new year. Xin nian kuai le!! Pagi2 ke ISS buat cek email than run quickly to library to catch the library class at 10 am. Setelah selesai, beli copy card $2 tapi Cuma ada account 50cent. Trus bareng fahri n rika ke medibank, buat kasih tau alamat then have lunch at oval, then go to agent property and last go to Eastgarden by bus. Duh tiket busnya boros deh. Mana travel ten doang bukan weekly pass. I bought sun screen. The sun in Sydney can cause skin cancer. Balik2 gue makan apa ya ? duh kok lupa ya ?OMG, gue kan ke dinner new year. It cost me $26.20 buat sekali makan doang neh. China banquet sih. Lumayan enak tuh, yang penting gue udah makan ikan dan mie. Tradisi Chinese new year hehehehhehe. Pulang2 jam 10 an lewat dah ngantuk n bobo
Typed 23 January 2004 10.41pm

23 January 2004

Today is Sydney Harbour Cruise day. I walk down from home at around 8.25 am for 5 minutes walk to bus stop then take the bus for 10 minutes to get to uni. I walk to ISS for about 7 minutes. Quite tired cos it just like climb up the hill. The UNSW is a very big uni which you need some time to explore all the things around the uni. Around 9.15 am Yew Kong came out and said that we have to catch a bus to central. Damn, he didn’t say that we have to buy brown travel 10 or brown weekly pass. I walk quickly to the union to get one with Nana. It cost me $9.8 for ten times travel. Today already used it for three times.
Arrived at Central at around 10 am, then walk quickly to harbour (?, not sure the name’s place). Just walk through Opera House and get in to the ship. At first time it was fun and the waves did ‘goyang’ quite kenceng. We were served by soda, and some light dishes. We have few kind of dishes which I don’t know the name yet. Quite delicious. First get in the ship, they welcome us with soft drinks. Then I just got around the house. First time I felt dizzy but later on, I get used to it and enjoyed. Puter2 around the opera house, kmd tiba di Watson bay buat jalan2. busyet pemandangannya indah banget. Nyesel deh ga beli digicam. Tapi ga juga ah, ga punya jadi ga susah potret2. yg ada gue tinggal jump in aja begitu ada yang mau potret.(mau enaknya doang neh) The walk was nice but tiring, mendaki trus turun trus mendaki gitu. Cape juga neh. Oh ya on the cruise, yew kong keluarin game, minta tiap2 dr kita tanya deh, who can play piano, who saw movie last week, ya sebagai ajang perkenalan lah. Tapi kurang banyak neh yang cakep. Trus ada neh 1 co Korean yang cakep banget, he will study about optometric, ato tentang kacamata gitu, ya orangnya sih friendly. Cool and cakep, even better dibandingkan ama co2 vietnam itu. Sayang, mereka juga scholarship student. Btw his name is chu/zhu. It is so difficult to pronounce their name, tapi his name remind me of XT, oh I miss him so much. Co2 vietnam ga ada yang lumayan neh but ce2 thailand tuh pada cakep2 n cool.
Anyway, abis cruise selesai sekitar jam 2 pm gitu, kita pisah deh ama ISS officers and then we walk to bus stop to catch a bus to Chinatown. Padahal jalan aja bisa, huh, habisin tiket gue aja neh. Everything here is very expensive. But it is ok lah, since gue juga lagi mencoba2 untuk cari tau jalan. But cos me a lot. Better than not lah. Wah English gue kok jadi singlish sih? Walk to Chinatown, untung di-guide ama krisnan, kl ga pusing gue. Di ajak ke tempat jual buah n sayur murah, eh ketemu tempat jual udang masak, 1 kg $9.99. ga mahal juga, udah matang 65000 rp. Di mana mau nyari seafood yang murah di Sydney ? masuk ke mall di atas paddy’s market eh ketemu Adrian, jadi deh dia guide dadakan kita. Duh gue liat kaos Giordano $15 1 biji, kl 2 $25, pengen beli sih, tapi kok kl di rupiahkan, mahal banget ya ? aduh dilemma neh, bisa beli but kok mahal ya ? on the way home, gue singgah di tempat mbak tina biar gue minggu bisa tuh ke tempat mereka kl gue kepagian di bus stop dan ga ada orang di sono. Ke sono bareng budi, trus balik juga bareng budi, but he continue his trip to eastgarden. Nekat aja tuh dia, kayanya he can be the man buat bersandar hehehe. Sayang he is also scholarship student hahhahahaha. Not on my list. Pulang2 telp 51, trus telp suan ce, payah neh yen dah lupa ama suara gue, sebel deh. Tapi berhasil minta ang pao ama soi hia. Ehehehe, this is the nice thing. Trus telp 3 ie then I called home too, like to spend pulsa, biar abis hehehe. Lumayan $10 buat 200 minutes. Kan lumayan tuh. Pengen makan eh wenny pulang, niatnya guemau makan instant noodle tapi ga enak neh ama temen2 cell nya mereka yg udah ada di sono. Duh si abon kejam banget sih, gue Cuma liat sosis doang, eh she told me, I cant eat that. Duh, apa2an sih ? gue juga ga niat, bt dehgue n terpaksa ikut cell mereka bentar, trus balik deh sini ketik2. bt gue. N then gue telp windy hehehehe. Manfaatin free call.dah ah mau bobo ngantuk n cape banget. Duh di flat sebelah kok ribut banget ya ? apa karna long wiken ?
Dengerin lagi LH, ni he wo. Duh kangen deh jadi laper deh. Pengen makan males, bis mo ie se sih. Mau gimana lagi ?
Typed finish at 10.32 pm

a post from the past

I cant remember i have post this or not but anyway, i;ll post it again


did the supplement yesterday, no ended quite well, but hope miracle will help me. Plssssss….

Then I went to unimac, asking about the iPod prices and guess what, the type that I wanted was not available in that store anymore. Sebel dehhhh, udah prepare bulet2 mau order yg itu eh ga ada, adanya malah kudu add some $150 to the new model. And right now, I have strong intention to buy that model. Dilemma… dilemma…., see what happen tomolo morning when I get up, k?

Felt a bit upset with coolvrb cos sebel aja gitu loh, she always want everything she want to be fulfilled and don’t care what other people think/want. I will cancel the party tomolo and tell her I am going to Newcastle with friends from Melbourne, yg mana dr melb Cuma seorang doang hihihihihihiii. Felt a bit strange jg cos my roomie was not invited to her party while her best friends were invited. Makin sebel aja ama tuh orang

Felt peaceful a bit when I checked my unimail cos the result was reveal and I pass my subject although there is one that I expect more than that. But thank you for Lord’s help, thx for His companion during my weakness time. Also thx to Amanda, she help me a lot too, by accompany me to the class, take the same class twice and help each other to survive in that “horrible “class hehehhe.

After finished the exam yesterday, I went to Opera house and meet some friends there then have dinner at the pancakes. Quite nice place but I went there with bunch of ‘quite’ annoying people, all of the are ‘huan nang’. As usual I become the ‘stranger’ in the group. Some are nice to me but then the costume that I don’t used to it.

Hearing banana has lot of traveling next week made me felt bad, I don’t know what the intention behind this and it really made me a bit jealous. Sebel ihhh, or gue yg lagi sensitive neh ?

About Adrian and his sister, well, they are really nice people although sometimes I saw it as bit kiasu, but I think it is about care matter. Really terharu when I asked his sister to lend the lecture notes to me and the time I went to his place, only 3 levels up :P, quite close huh?, they talked and chat along with me, gave me support for the exam. They are really really nice, can u imagine? I just knew him for about 8 months in 1997 and now he become so nice person although he is totally stingy person. Duh intinya sih gue bener2 terharu aja, even the night before the exam, he called me and asked, have u really ready? Have a good sleep. And wish me all the best. What kind of friend that I have? I was blessed. Thx Lord. Even my own friends aja ga begitu terhadap gue. Wuihhhhh, Christmas present in advance. Hope I will pass this time

Love life, hmm rada males bahas soal ini soalnya ga mood, padahal gue tau si harle pasti tunggu komen gue soal ini deh, sorry sis, I am not in the mood to talk about this rite now

Speaking bout prayer, to do a pray at specific time every day seems hard to me, ada aja halangannya or because this is the challenge of this prayer? Oh help me :P
Jumat
Ipod

Sabtu blue mountain
Olympic park
Euroka, blue mountain national park kanggoro
Wentworth falss
3 sisters
bushwalking
train 52degree

Sunday 12 dec 2004

Fishmarket, church
Casino
Harbour side

Monday
Train
Newcastle
Beach
Nuddy beach
Lighthouse
Dinner benjamas

Tuesday
King Edward park
Airport
Port Stephen
Fish n chip
Dolphin cruise
Dinner
Cape

Wednesday
Keliling beach lagi
Brunch subway
Uni of Newcastle
Pulang

Thursday
Bangun kepagian deh gara2 weker mati menunjukkan jam 10am, eh jam di hp baru jam 8, ya sudahlah.
Naek tower kok ga ajak2 gue yah? Sebel ihhh, but g jg kudu hemat sih. Aga2 sebel aja tuhhhh ga diajak. I will go with my big family :P

Friday
Citi, cari buku
Nana’s place
Darling harbour


Saturday
Nana’s place, copi pic
The domain

Sunday
Irvie’s place, moving
Chinatown – iffy
Church
Dinner at nana’s

Getting kurus?
Hmm I hate that when people meet me and say, getting kurus ya? Sial, mau kurus di mana? Celana aja tetep sempit gitu? Even the smallest size of jeans that I have.

Today Sunday is quite hot, I think about 35 degrees and I have to travel to irvie’s new place and go to Chinatown to meet iffy and friends.

Monday
Kerja

Selasa
Bbq n ke bondi junction and bondi beach

Rabu
Kerja

Kamis
Kerja jg tapi tetep ke eastgarden
Brunch at 3pm,
Nite, watch amasing race and apprentice.
Then komplen soal awen yg tinggalin cucian and then other people ga cuciin. Hmm this is big problem, jadinya keenakan dia dong yang selalu leave dirty plates and glasses. Emang gue orang babunya?

LAzy, no in the mood

Today, went to walk-in interview with one of the biggest company in Indo, but they dissapointed me a lot. not on time, didnt even ask my resume and transcipts and i didnt want to hand in to them too. well, this is another experience in the recuitment process with 'famous' company :(

have many story to tell but to lazy to type
well another day has gone and leave me doing nothing at all

myday cake, tampak dr seberang :P

Life

A week has passed and also my age :( I am getting older now.
Last week was my bday. Housemates were giving me a surprise bday cake at 12am, then we took pics and ate noodle :) well I was pretty surprise because last week everyone was busy and I was not expecting people to remember my bday. Evey one busy with their own things. Then at noon I went to church with uni’s friends and they also prepared a surprise lunch for me. Wow this bday I have 2 cakes and blew the candles twice, weird :P
Well, I was pretty happy with this bday cos it was special, the age was special for me because I like the numbers :)

Well this week, there has been a lot of things happening. I keep reminding myself of not online every night and become batman but I still alive till dawn. Chatting, downloading, playing games etc that keep me busy at night.

Last mon, tue and wed were the hectic days I ever had. I had exam on wed night and the questions were sucks, most of it :(. There were 11 questions with negative marking and the choices only true and false. What the h… ? I am taking postgraduate level education and I still have to face the true and false question in the exam? Is that testing the ability to take the right decision or testing ur memory, checking whether u memorize the textbook or not? Make me angry!! But anyway, it was over now and this time I am waiting the result… (worry again)

Then yesterday, Thursday, he made a confession again, told me that he need to discuss some issues with me. I can guess actually what he is going to say to me but u cant guess how he will tell me. And yesterday, the day was pretty hectic, after the church, I was copying desperate housewives for myself :P and then went to international career expo, to search for my probable future employers :) then finally he have a chance to tell me that there is rumor between us. Well I didn’t expect this to happen and he said he had told nana about this and told her, that this is impossible. Hahaha, g sih ga pusing cos I don’t felt anything and I don’t think dirugikan jgdanmerugikan cos yg menyebabkan hal ini terjadi jg bukan gue. Buset dah, g cuek banget yah? Gue cuma menganggap he is one of my good friends, belum sampe tahap best friends like other. He claimed that I have given him a lot of advices (??) which I doubted hahaahaha. Well, I prefer to have a lots of friend drpd mush lah but I don’t know how to clarify this problem yg menurut g sih cuekin aja, karna g emang cuek. Well, at this stage, at least I poured out what I think about this.

Lately, my relationship with vie and atien lumayan longgar. I don’t know why but yg jelas kl vie tuh lagi stress berat sama tugas PhD and atien yg menurut g, suka tidak mau bergabung dgn kita2 lagi, she had a secret ? well, terserah she, anyway, I don’t care or too cuek? Well, I care about my friends but they seem don’t want me to interrupt to their life so what can I do? Well I am going back to indo, don’t want to care ahhhhh
Forget it!!!!

Dah ahhh pusinggggg, mending g belajar aja infosys and myob :P

tired and counting days by my Dad :)

Another year has passed.

There are so many things to think about. Reflection of life, relationship with God and with society. Progress of studying, join the uni’s activities and many other stuffs.
The most important thing is relationship with God (obvious!!), then relationship with people around you. The less you communicate with them, the less close will be. This is true. I felt it that way, so how can I improve that? I was too ‘cuek’ person so I don’t care too much with other people’s problem because I think it was not in my scope to know.

Dah ah, dah jam 2 ngelantur kemana2, mending baca ttg advantages and disadvantages about CoCoA buat bahan exam hihi

Jia You!!

I did it finally…

Just now, come back from City. I did something that I wanted to do since a long long time and now I felt glad that I have done it, although the thing I did doesn’t represent anything at all to other people but for me, I need a big support to do it. Tapi sebel,barangnya kok dah ga bagus sih? But next time, I promise, I will bring a good one. Untungnya lagi, ini di Sydney so people don’t care what you do.

Then just now, I lie again, but it is for my own sake, I think. I have to start making a distance, if not, I can make a mistake then in the future. I already said before so listen to my heart. Lord, guide me!!

No way out for the moment...

I have been thinking a lot lately, about life, friendship, relationship, study, uni life and everything that comes into my mind. Truely, at the moment, i dont know wat should i do.
Tomorrow, i have a plan that i wish to do since long long time ago. hopefully I can do it.

and just now, few hours ago, i did stupid mistake by online and then it really disturb my concentration. cen de pen tan!! Stupid stupid stupid!!! I kept saying to myself, dont online, dont online, but i still online and now, you see, i got the bad side effect of this stupid decision.

oh, how come you dont hear what ur heart say? too naughty to obey wat ur heart say.

the other problem that still in my thinking is that wat happen if you were born with many mixed blood? I mean ur blood consist of many nationalities? should you be gratefull or regret it? i think it depends on wat nationalities you have. If you have much of huan kia's blood, then thai ke si lah. I wont like it and will make a certain distance to that limit. on the other hand(duh kaya essay aja), if you can survive because of this strange mixed blood that make you 'dikucilkan' from the majority, you are brave but again, i will keep distance because there are so many not blessed things happen because of this problem. Hey, wat am i talking about? subuh2 ngetiknya seh cepat but meramput apa neh? duhhhhh
at least i shout out wat i think at the moment because i cant share it with other people around me at this time, this is not the time yet.

tomorrow, what is going to happen? Let it be!! but please dont make me felt 'malu banget', k
oh God, please help me make up a reason for tomorrow!! i want to avoid bad thing to happen. I believe You will help me!! amin.

loh kok malah jadi doa seh. duh tulalit mode is on now.

i wish i can meet you guys, ruth, hanny, i really miss you, friends, cant wait to see you again. i want to escape for the moment, too many pressure on me right now...................

From now on, listen to wat ur heart say, jangan nakallllllllllllllllllllll
done for now. still not lega but at least i shouted out already.

Critiques

How come it so difficult to accept critiques? Even though the critiques are wise enough for you to apply?

and how so lucky that the critiques that I accepted, not directly given to me, exactly in my face, but through chatting?

"Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach him to use the Net and he won't bother you for weeks".

kok jadi mirip blog g di prenster yah? kacau dah hahahahahhahha

what is going on with me? suddenly i felt really lonely.
dau ti you se me se?

kue ultah, read the candles carefully :)
isenkk's property

Rearrange my life…

Today is public holiday here. Oz people are celebrating the Anzac Day, it is just like Hari Pahlawan in Indonesia. Nothing I can do on this day because everyone was busy with their own stuffs. I was doing/finishing my assignment, which I don’t really sure that is a good report, but at least I try to do it and then I will cut it to reach its word limit.

Today, I got my laptop fixed and installed with new softwares, installed new anti virus that I don’t have before. Gelo yah g, ga ada anti virus but donlod2 lagu, emang dodol dah, dah gitu lumyan gaptek lagi, thx God, I have friends that can help me with this problems.

Today, I did nothing at all. Just try to finish my assignment and try to study. I didn’t expect that fixing my computer will take a long long time, almost half day, and I was a bit curious what he is going to do by fixing my laptop. Is he and friends planning for something next week? Or I just curious too much? Ah don’t care anyway but still curious, want to know :(

I have to start to study now, no other choice, on Thursday, I have to finish editing my assignment so on Friday I can summit my assignment on time.

Well, yesterday was nana’s bday. As usual, few of us were planning the surprise party for her. I think we did it pretty well but when we finished the party, she started to cry because of that bloody melb. guy. He didn’t call her, which is good but she ended up with crying and made a friend of mine panic. Well, I used to that situation before so santai aja. At first, I also got panic but then I realize she is just sentimental. I am sure she is ok now. Hopefully she is getting over it soon.

Well, this is the end of these few days journey.

Long journey will be continued….

Be tough!!

Happy Bday, mate
How everything is ok and u soon forget that bloody stupid guy in melb that heard you a lot. Cheer up, girl!! We care about u, so let go your self from this knot, k?

Been busy for the whole week, have sat in front of computer for days, make my eyes suffered.
The next coming week will be busy as well :(

Kingdom of Heaven - orlando bloom?
any1 interested?

Confuse

Everyone has their own problems. But this time, I found Desy crying in her praying, I don’t know what to do, help her? But she seem don’t want my help. I am not her any one, she just my new housemate. Ce me pan?

Preparing nana’s bday present took a lot of time, every one is busy with their own things, assignments, exams and other personal stuffs. And then me again have to arrange it and prepare it, luckily some friends are willing to help, so we discussed it through messenger but I still the ‘main’ responsible.

Just now, she came in to my room and asking me, wat I am doing now, I said, doing my assignment, she didn’t know what I typed just now :P hai yah so aneh that people.

My feeling just ok now but tooooo lazy to start the assignments. I have the ideas in my mind but cant put it in writing. I know what the assignment asking for but the main problem is LAZY ………

My relationship with other friends seem look better and better but not with Hailsetan itu. Don’t know why I try to avoid to make important conversation with her. Just talk the ‘basa basi’ stuffs. And back to Nana’s bday present, she also wanted to give her idea but don’t want to help. Hmmm, rese aja gitu loh, hanya pengen memuaskan kemauannya dia doang tanpa berpikir org laen yg lagi kerjain hal tersebut. She can use her exams as reason but other friends jg ada exams kan? Not only her, have exams in front. Ok enough bout her.

Oren, one of my online friend is missing, cant contact her, cant message her, cant email her. Where is she? Oren, if u read my blog, please contact me, k?

\back to study againnnnnnn, hopefully hihi

New Pope has been elected

welcome Pope Benedict XVI, weird name, although good meaning
tired
chat alot
cope with uni quite well
nana's bday is coming, mine as well
rahmat gelo, kl chatting ga ada yg bener

ok deh
blogging again next time
now: not in the mood

lost and found again..

just watched desperate housewives, everyweek i got a good quote from the series.
tonite quote is we dont know who we can trust.

felt miserable, i did a little lie today but wu suo wei lah, i met amanda and she told me about her telemarketing jobs, funny :)

felt not ok now, cos lots of things need to be done in the same time and i also need to work for my holiday budget. wuahhhh pusing

a bit done

i have done my reading, hope can help for monday's lecture
have to print lecture notes on Monday and print the assignment, havent fixed that yet

trus tadi sore mau ke gereja eh ketiduran, bangun2 pas jam misa mulai, sebel deh
so have to go tomolo lah :)

stucked at Positive Accounting Theory and now i am moving on CoCoA (Continous ly Contemporary Accounting).
duh apaan seh itu?

this afternoon. I only spend less than 1 hour in the libr and then went home sleep. Now lagi mentok baca accounting theory yg emang amit2 byk banget itu

helppp helpppp... kelelep neh g hehhehehe

Done..


I just finished the online assessment.
now want to take a shower and have my early lunch and then go to church and uni
let see, i can stay there for how long hehehe
cos today is cloudy day...

reminds me of checking the weather :)

outnow . lost

wish me luck ...
i'll do the online assessment tomorrow morning before going to uni and church :)

isenkk jia you!!

Sulit...


How come giving advise to other people is easy? and when u know wat u have to do is difficult to implement?

kasih nasehat seh gampang ke org and orang yg dapet nasehat itu jg grateful gitu, but kok g ga bisa yah laksanakan nasehat tersebut sendiri?

anyway, 3 more months i will be at home :)

and another problems will come out by that time :(
jobless, job seekers ...

Trying to back on track...

Today, such a long long day.
try to finish my assignment, read 5943, go to libr, class and then got news that the mid exam is postponed to week 9 which is 3 weeks from now. I dont know what should I do, be happy or sad. On one side, i have extra time for studying but at the other side, since the exam is on the beginning of the month, probably at that time I will be working. gimana dong, mau kena mundur jg kena. Pengen ujian beres and sukses, pengen jg kerja dapet duit, duhhhhhh
Helpppp...

Lost again…..

I have thinking and thinking and thinking, what is going on with me this lately. Work like maniac, saving money like I never do, chatting a lot with one particular person (this has to be stopped, virus, but can I do that? Sometimes helping a friend is a great satisfaction but too much help also can harm me), don’t care with my assignments and study, don’t obey my praying time. Don’t know what is happening to me, I have tried to fix it but still cant.

I need to talk to somebody that really understand me, understand what I want now, understand how I feel now, understand what I want to achieve now and the point is understand me truly. As In desperate housewives: Human are complicated creatures. And now I felt that I am really complicated, there are so many things I have to do and I haven’t even finished them all perfectly.

Let start with the ticketing, Jo has sent the going home letter to me and I supposed to book the ticket right away but till now, I haven’t done anything with it. Still can decide when I want to go home. Truly I don’t want to go home, I love Sydney despite the city is not like the ‘bule’ city I expected, but I love Sydney, I am gonna miss Sydney.

Next thing, I have planned in my mind that I have to finish searching the companies vacancies in april but I havent done anything yet. Haven’t fixed my resume yet. Well, by the end of this month I should have, at least, planned what I have to do, but I failed to do that. Sigh!!,

Coming up next, mid exam of ACCT 5943, it is like hell, the materials are too theoretical, how I supposed to memorize it and it will come out in multiple choice questions? The other subject has assignment due at the end of this months, I just started to read the questions and it seem almost the same as ACCT 5931, about 5 forces of Porters.

Next, Nana’s bday, don’t have any plan. I don’t know what to do for her bday, cos at that time everyone is busy with their own exams and assignment. The week after will be my bday. A bit scare to celebrate my bday, u know what, I am getting older, sigh!, I wish I can discount my age. I don’t know what my friends are going to prepare. -deleted-
Next, I just realize that I lost or forget where I put my prayer book. I cant find it. Gawat, kudu cari neh besok pagi.

Medicine of my stress is crying but this lately I hardly even can cried, my mind want to cried but my eyes didn’t compromise. Last Sunday, I found out that I lost my niece and I didn’t feel sad at all. How cruel I was? She was just 1 day old; I even have no chance to see her for the first time and she just gone….

I want to cry, to shout out loud….,pray to the Lord, asking for guidance cos I am really really lost now.

can I turn off my messenger everytime I log in to the internet? Can I do that? I will try my best, just pretend my messenger is broken? Can i? I doubt myself . ce me pan?? Wo hen pusinggggg

Still Lost

got friendster msg from Tino : every thing just fine and just trying to keep my world turning arround.so far... so tired... THEN yup... my num still the same... happy easter 2and looking forward to meet u

everyone seems so busy and tired, and me toooooooo
too many things to do, just finished my application letter and send it already

but my feeling still lost and still cant find the way out, ce me pan? efeknya skrg lage ntn Mr. Figthing 13, close to the end ...

LOST ...


This lately, there are so many thing happened in my life. This morning after the mass, we went to Chinese Restaurant for yum cha aka Chinese breakfast :), cost me a lot but ended up with the ‘unwanted’ topic between vero and nana. Sampe2 ‘war’ between those two.
Then Nana has more info about Clarte and Vero but she don’t want to tell me, make me curious padahal g lagi want something from Clarte, but have to kubur dalam2 deh about this, don’t want to have connection with vero and stuffs. Duh g jadi penasaran deh. But at least I had someone I can talk to about this. Truly, I was a bit confince by nana about ver’s attitude about this topic. Masing2 punya ego yang dipertahankan and g dasarnya diem aje cos g males bahas topic tersebut and I am trying to build my relationship again with her in new way, try to be her friend again but with limitations. eh si irvie jg had something that i dont know about vero. this girl quite diem about this too, make me penasaran jg neh

About PnG, I haven’t apply yet, and a bit freaking out cos a friend of mine has send it and I myself haven’t even start to make my resume letter. Takut tersaingin neh, and this lately I felt that I am afraid that I cant get a job when I graduate in July, serem ga sih, kl sampe ga dapet kerjaan ntar di indo? The best thing is I can go home but I will miss Sydney (my tears are falling down now, already miss Sydney while I still there).

Talk to clarte make me a bit confidence cos he gave me a lot of views and then I know what I should do but I still don’t have enough time and keep chatting aja tiap malam, duh, makin ngaco aja neh g

Baru hari ini g berani telp rumah asking about my niece, telp rumah ga ada orang, semua ke tempat Ama, then I called my ipar lah, then she told me, she had gone a day after she was born, sad jg neh, or probably this is not the right time :( Sad….
Then pope has gone too, don’t know him much but because of his death I know more about him , the holy one

Text of Pope John Paul II's testamentFriday, April 8, 2005

VATICAN CITY (AFP) - The Vatican on Thursday released the text of the last will and testament of Pope John Paul II.
Following is an unofficial translation of the document from the Italian text released by the Vatican, which appeared to be unfinished notes and thoughts originally drafted in Polish, the pope's native language. Notes from the Vatican are included in brackets.
The text reflects the style and punctuation of the pope, as well as his exact phraseology.
Totus Tuus ego sum. (I am entirely yours) In the Name of the Most Holy Trinity. Amen "Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come" -- these words remind me of the final summons, which will happen at the time God wills. I wish that I may follow Him and that every part of my life prepare me for that moment. I do not know when it will occur, but as with everything, I place this moment also in the hands of the Mother of my Master: Totus Tuus. In the same maternal hands I leave everything and everyone to whom I have been connected by my life and my vocation. In these Hands, I leave above all the Church, and also my nation and all of humanity. I thank everyone. To everyone, I ask forgiveness. I also ask for prayer, for the Mercy of God to show itself to be greater than my weakness and my unworthiness. During spiritual exercises, I have re-read the testament of the Holy Father Paul VI. This reading has impelled me to write this present testament. I leave behind me no property that needs to be disposed of. As for the objects of daily use that served me, I ask that they be distributed as seems appropriate. May my personal notes be burnt. I ask that this matter be attended to by Don Stanislaw, whom I thank for his collaboration and for such prolonged and comprehensive help over the years. All other gratitude, however, I keep in my heart before God himself, because they are difficult to express. As for the funeral, I repeat the same arrangements that were given by the Holy Father Paul VI. (Vatican: "Here a note in the margin: a tomb in the ground, not in a sarcophagus, 13.3.1992). "apud Dominum misericordia et copiosa apud Eum redemptio" John Paul pp. II (In the house of the Lord, mercy, and great is the redemption therein) Rome, 6.III.1979 After death, I ask for Holy Masses and prayers. 5.III.1990
Page without a date: I express the deepest faith that, despite all my weakness, the Lord will give me every necessary grace to face according to His will whatever duty, trial, and suffering that He may ask of His servant throughout life. I also have faith that He will never allow me through any of my acts -- words, works, or omissions -- to betray my obligations in this Holy See of Peter.
24.II-1--III.1980 Also during these spiritual exercises I have reflected on the truth of Ministry of Christ in the expectation of that transition which for each of us is the moment of our death. From the departure from this world -- to be born in the other, the future world, an eloquent sign ëVatican: added above: decisiveû for us is the Resurrection of Christ. I have therefore read the entry of my testament last year, also made during the spiritual exercises -- I compared it to the testament of my great Predecessor and Father Paul VI, with that sublime testimony on the death of a Christian and of a pope -- and I renewed in myself the awareness of questions to which the entry of 6.III.1979 prepared by me (in a rather provisional way) refers. Today I wish to add to it only this: that each of us has to keep in mind the prospect of death. And has to be ready to present himself before the Lord and the Judge -- and at the same time, Redeemer and Father. So, I too take this into consideration constantly, entrusting that decisive moment to the Mother of Christ and of the Church -- to the Mother of my hope. The times in which we live are inexpressibly difficult and restless. Difficult and tense also has become the life of the Church, in a characteristic trial of our times -- as much for the Faithful as for the Pastors. In some Countries (for example like the one of which I have read during the spiritual exercises), the Church finds itself in a period of persecution no less than that of the first centuries, in fact it surpasses it in its degree of ruthlessness and hate. Sanguis martyrum semen christianorum. (the blood of martyrs is the seed of Christianity). And in addition, thousands of people disappear innocently, even in this Country in which they live... I want once again to totally entrust myself to the grace of the Lord. He will decide when and how I have to finish my earthly life and my pastoral ministry. In life and in death Totus Tuus through the Immaculate. Accepting already even now this death, I hope that Christ will give me the grace for the last passage, that is (my) Easter. I also hope that this is of use for this most important cause that I seek to serve: the salvation of mankind, the safeguarding of the human family, including all nations and peoples (amongst them I turn in a particular way my own earthly homeland), of use also to the people that in a particular way have entrusted me with questions concerning the Church, for the glory of God Himself. I do not wish to add anything to what I wrote a year ago -- only to express that readiness and at the same time that faith, to which these spiritual exercises have again disposed me. John Paul II Totus Tuus ego sum
5.III.1982 During the spiritual exercises of this year, I (repeatedly) re-read the text of the testament of 6.III.1979. Although I still consider it temporary (not final), I leave in its current form. I change (for the time being) nothing, and neither do I add anything, concerning the arrangements contained in them. The attempt on my life of 13.V.1981 in some way has confirmed the truth of the words written in the period of spiritual exercises of 1980 (24.II-1.III). I feel even more profoundly that I am totally in the Hands of God -- and I remain continuously at the service of my Lord, entrusting myself to Him in His Immaculate Mother (Totus Tuus). John Paul II
5.III.1982 In connection with the last phrase of my testament of 6.III.1979 ("On the location/ the location that is of the funeral/ the College of Cardinals and Compatriots will decide) I clarify what I have in mind: the archbishop of Krakow and the General Council of the Episcopate of Poland -- I ask the College of Cardinals in the meantime to satisfy as far as possible the eventual demands of those listed.
1.III.1985 (during the spiritual exercises) Again -- regarding the expression "College of Cardinals and Compatriots": the "College of Cardinals" has no obligation to consult "the Compatriots" on this question; it can nonetheless do so if for any reason it finds it appropriate. JPII
The spiritual exercises of the jubilee year 2000 (12-18-lll)
1. When on October 16 1978 the conclave of cardinals chose John Paul II, the primate of Poland, Cardinal Stefan Wyszynski told me: "the task of the new pope will be to introduce the Church to the third millennium. I don't know if I repeat the phrase exactly, but at least that is the sense of what I then heard. This was said by the man who has passed into history as the Primate of the Millennium. A great Primate. I was a witness to his mission, to his total dedication. To his struggle: to his victory. "Victory when it comes will be a victory through Mary" -- the Primate of the Millennium used to repeat these words by his predecessor, Cardinal August Hlond. In this way I was in some way prepared for the task that was presented to me on October 16, 1978 In the moment I write these words, the Jubilee year of 2000 is already a reality taking place. On the night of December 24, 1999 the symbolic Great Jubilee door of St. Peter's basilica was opened followed by that of St.John in Lateran and then, on New Year's Day, that of St. Mary Major and on January 19 that of St. Paul's "outside the walls." This last event, through its ecumenical nature, particularly remains fixed in memory. As the jubilee year 2000 advances, the 20th century closes day by day behind us and the 21st century opens. According to the designs of providence, I have been given to live in the difficult century that is retreating into the past, and now in the year in which my life has reached the 80th year ("octogesima adveniens), I have to ask myself whether it is not time to repeat the Nunc dimittis." (Now lettest thou thy servant depart) with the Biblical Simeone. On May 13, 1981, the day of the attack on the pope during the general audience in St. Peter's Square, Divine Providence saved me miraculously from death. With Him who is the only Lord of life and death, even He has prolonged this life and in a certain sense has given me a new one. From this moment it belongs even more to Him. I hope that He will assist me to recognize how long I should continue in this service, to which he called me on October 16, 1978. I ask Him to call me when He wills. "Whether we live or whether we die, we are the Lord's" (cf Romans 14,8). I also hope that so long as I have the responsibility for the Petrine service of the Church, the Mercy of God will give me the strength necessary to perform this service. As in every year during the spiritual exercises, I have re-read my testament of 6.III. 1979, I continue to maintain the arrangements contained therein. What was added then and in subsequent spiritual exercises constitutes a reflection on the difficult and tense general situation that marked the 1980s. After the Autumn of 1989, this situation has changed. The last decade of the last century was free of the preceding tensions; that does not mean that it did not bring new problems and difficulties. In particular, may Divine Providence be praised for this, that the period of so-called "Cold War" has ended without the violent nuclear conflict of which the danger weighed on the world in the preceding period. Standing on the threshold of the third millennio "in medio Ecclesiae" (in the midst of the Church), I wish also to express gratitude to the Holy Spirit for the great Gift of the Second Vatican Council, to which with the entire Church -- and above all with the entire episcopate - I feel I am in debt. I am convinced that for a long time yet new generations will drink from the source of riches that this Council of the Twentieth century has lavished on us. As a bishop who participated in this conciliar event from the first day to the last, I wish to entrust this great heritage to all those who are and who will in future be called to fulfil it. For my part, I thank the eternal Shepherd who has allowed me to serve this very great cause in the course of all the years of my pontificate. "In medio Ecclesiae" ... from the very first years of service as a bishop -- precisely because of the Council -- I have been able to experience the brotherly communion of the Episcopate. As a priest in the Archdiocese of Krakow, I experienced what could be the fraternal communion of the presbytery -- the Council has opened a new dimension to this experience. How many people should I mention! Probably the Lord God has called most of them to Himself - as for those who still find themselves in these parts, may the words of this testament remember them, all of them, and wherever they may be. In the course of the more than twenty years in which I have carried out the service of Peter "in medio Ecclesiae" I have experienced the benevolent and so fruitful collaboration of so many Cardinals, Archbishops and Bishops, so many priests, so many consecrated people -- Brothers and Sisters -- and last not least so many lay people in the circle of the curia, in the vicariate of the Rome diocese, as well as further afield. How can I not embrace with grateful memory all the Episcopates of the world, with whom I have met during the successive visits "ad limina Apostolorum!" (to the shrines of the Apostles). How can I not remember so many Christian Brothers -- non-Catholics! And the rabbi of Rome and so many representatives of the non-Christian religions! And how many representatives of the worlds of culture, of science, of politics and the means of social communication! As the limits of my earthly life approach, I return to the memories of the beginning, of my Parents, of my Brother and Sister (who I did not know because she died before my birth), of the parish of Wadowice where I was baptized, of my beloved hometown, of the people of my age, companions of my elementary school, high school and university up to the time of the occupation when I worked as a laborer, and next in the parish of Niegowie, the Cracov parish of St. Floriano, of my pastoral work among the academics ... of the circles .. to all the circles ... of Krakov and Rome ... to the people people who in a special way have been entrusted to my by the Lord. To all, I wish to say this one thing: "May God reward you." "In manus Tuas, Domine, commendo spiritum meum" (Into Your hands, Lord, I commend my spirit).


http://news.ninemsn.com.au/article.aspx?id=47844

Confuse..

these days, work alot, having no time for study, next week have to cancel all the work and have to start to study and finish the AIS assignment, have to get 80% (the target).

Tomorrow, will attend the Requim Mass for Pope at Uni, celebrate by Father Tan.

tired, need to break for all this things happened in my life, need to write cover letter and fixed my resume, need to apply for graduate position back to the country then, have to make target company list.

Jia You!!!

你會的!!

lu sebenernya baik hati tapi... gwa tau sebenernya lu tu cuma galak galakan, ga tau buat nutupin apa, but that big ego act of yours, i know its just a fake, cus ure a soft person inside"----> maksudnya apa neh?

wah kudu ati2 neh ama ne org

My life has been so lost this lately….


Last week was Easter break, I did nothing to my study, it seemed that I ignored my study these days. Since the plan to Goldcoast unsuccessed, then what I want to plan seem no realization.

I am so lost….. then that guy’s case, jadinya g sering chat ama dia, trus kadang2 bagus jg sih, dia jadi korban kekesalan g yang dengan setia mendengarkan n terima gitu, beda ama nana yg then defence herself :) trus last night, afai jg jadi korban celaan gue tuh. G cela2 tuh undangan kawinnya dia yang pake huruf silver and warna merah, he even can defense himself quite strong with funny face, but I felt sorry for abon, moga2 aja ga tersinggung soal invitationnya

Intinya g lagi kacau balau neh n trying to set up my life properly in these 2 days. Gara2 kerja almost everyday demi $$$, kegiatan study jadi berantakan begitu.
So hopefully besok will be the last day to work, then I can start to arrange my life again :P

Just now, unplanned,

Manly Wharf
isenkk's property

Don’t know what to do….

I have made a lot of promises. Don’t know which one I can fulfill first.

Last Saturday I went to Manly Beach, the beach that Oz people claim as the best beach in Oz. Kind of disappointed. Arrived there at around 12.30pm, the beach was full with people sunbathing, a friend of mine say wuih, banyak banget orang jemur ikan asin hehehe, then we only taking pictures.

Yesterday, Pope had died, farewell Pope….
A bit regret that I didn’t go to St. Mary. I saw the bell rang in tv, and then ended up at Nana’s place copying pics and mp3. that guy also went there brought his HD, gile kan, then went to atien’s place just to pick up the cd. He also told me about atien and gib, her msia’ friend, a bit weird with that couple, I don’t know what to do then

As the effect of the promises I have made, I felt that my time is not enough for me to catch up everything. After he told me what he felt, I felt a bit “bu si kuan” when seeing him. I promise to him already that I wont avoid him. I kept my promise, but this morning I felt a little bit annoyed by his phone call, in the middle of my working, untung managernya ga ada di depan gue. Oh ya one more thing, early in the morning, he also send me sms, sound like jia you for working, duh mateng aja kan? Then in the afternoon I had to call me to pay all the debt that everyone ‘titip’ on me :)

Finished working at 3.40 pm then heading to uni, to the lab, and the lab assistant teach the machine how to use myob not teach student how to used myob, damn!!

Then at 6-8pm, class, guest lecturer by staff from BAT
Go home, plan to watch Desperate Housewives, but in the middle of the drama, anet called awen, and she spoke loudly then I got angry, go to room and surf the internet. Drpd g ntn ga tenang, rese, mending g balik ke kamar maen internet, rese dehhhh

Ok then
Back tomolo

Manly Beach

today I went to this beach. Every one say that the most beautiful beach in sydney, but i can prove that was wrong. in my opinion, bondi still the best. waktu sampe di manly, duh penuh sesak, banyak yg jemur ikan asin hehehehe aka people are sunbathing, till no space at all.
Overall, terpenuhi sudah salah satu keinginan gue yg belum tercapai ini hehehheehee, eh ada max benner lage di sono. duh jadi pengen ke chatswood lage, teahouse.... :P

the Rock
isenkk's property

UNSW from Harbourne Road :P
isenkk's property

Quite cerdik ....

this time i was quite cerdik to guess, and i even can feel it. There must be something with him.
and I was right, i was being compared to her gf, and he said his gf have similarity with. Duh untung I have no feeling at all about that. G anggap as one of my best buddies that i can share my opinions n views. kl he expect more than that mah susah.

mateng aje kl dia baca ini hehehe, but i didnt mention the name.
i started to curious since he talked to me about my shirt, then i guest there must be something wrong with him. then when preparing atien's bday, again, he asked me to set the budgeting. I dont want to guest too quickly but then this afternoon, "throwing" the present to me and asked me to wrap it. that such attitude made it clear. :P or this is an april mop fun? well i enjoy it anyway...

today also april mop and sialan, si amanda berhasil ngerjain g lagi, dgn alasan bilang mau married and engaged at the end of this month, g kan jadi bingung, jadi ada 2 events for the next month, taunya diboongin hahha, kocak jg seh g bisa dikerjain ama amanda kaya gitu